I've never been the most outgoing of people. I have a small circle of friends and a pretty wide group of acquaintances, both on-line and in real life. I've always been happy with that and have never cared much for unannounced visitors. But those who I care about, I was completely comfortable with each and every one, so long as they were in my life in the right context, i.e. where I expected them to be. That's always been normality for me.
In the last 6 months I really can't be bothered interacting with people. I mean, I can talk junk over the garden fence for a few minutes with the neighbour and that's pleasurable, but that's as far as I want to go. Someone I've known for 30 odd years, we used to meet up for food and a catch-up every month or so; haven't seen him since last year because I just can't be bothered. It's only ever been a friendship thing, but I'd like to think we were good friends. He's stopped ringing me because I never answered the phone, stopped texting me because, on the rare occasion I did take the time to answer him, I'd say something like "I'm fine, hope you're ok also." I feel sad about it, I think, but I know I just couldn't / can't deal with him any more.
This will probably sound a bit geeky and odd, but I've played an on-line game for almost 3 years and joined a clan within the game. Nothing sinister, just a place to share common interests with faceless people. Massive way to go - great part of my life. Since the Fall, I struggle to maintain even the simplest of relationships. I've changed clan half a dozen times, I can't cope with too many newcomers at once and I really cannot cope with trying to reply to more than one person messaging me at any one time.
These are little blips in the scheme of things, stuff you can't even conceive until you're right there, on your own, isolated, and knowing that, although it's the only thing you can deal with, it's not really what you want.
I'd just like to get back to my normal anti-social self.