Hi all, this is my first time posting on such a forum. I'd had a brain injury for 9 years now. And really it's my own fault. I'd had social anxiety and depression for years and I had got help for it but when ur young ur so scared and overwhelmed by it.anyway it all came to a head when I had just turned 25 . In hindsight now I think I was having a nervous breakdown , I had being stressed for months. I too an overdose of nurofen plus and had some sort of seizure. I had previously being to the doctor to get help but he had dismissed me. When I went bk to him after my suicide attempt he claimed nothing was wrong with me. I know my situation is pathetic and entirely my own fault so I'm not looking for sympathy. I then had terrible pain in the bk of my head for at least 3 years after that and v bad speech deficits. I managed to kinda teach myself to speak fluently again but now I still search for words and my short term memory is awful. I'd it totally disguised to my family - I think!!!id lost friends and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about suicide. I'm such s chicken though! I haven't had a boyfriend in years and I used to be so smart and pretty. I'm still fun but I know my life is fucked and I'm all to blame. Thinking of going to a Pilates class next week , will I be able to follow it. Afraid people will think I'm stupid! Wish I had my old brain bk however fucked that was, this is hell.