hi,
I’ve read a lot of posts here and am finding them extremely reassuring , I haven’t found this on any fb so far. I’ll try and give a condensed story of myself. Maybe it might resonate with someone and help them, that they’re not odd for feeling a variety of emotions.
Firstly, 5 years ago I had an ear infection ( right ear) and ended up with tinnitus, which was extremely distressing and difficult to accept, but finally did it.
Next, in March this year breast cancer scare, had a lumpectomy on left breast, results ok. But need yearly monitoring . Increased risk!
2 weeks ago was driving and all of a sudden the vision in my left eye started to go, flickering in the upper left side and couldn’t focus well on the dashboard, got home (I know I should have pulled over). Was extremely distressed, husband drove me to hospital, was admitted and was there for 6 days. A variety of tests, a lot of heart, came back excellent. So nothing to worry about there!
CT scan didn’t show anything. Had an MRI haven’t got results yet, but was so extremely distressed before this that I couldn’t do it until the 3rd attempt, I had to take Valium 4 hours beforehand and then have IV sedation to get my brain and neck done. Did it though but was chemically assisted!
Had an Ophthalmologist this Monday just passed, diagnosed with glaucoma. This is what threw me into a panic/distress state and also a sense of dread! Before I fully comprehended this was getting my right eye lasered (all within 2 hours of being told I had glaucoma ).
Apparently the Ophthalmologist feels laser is more effective and cost effective as well. I walked out of there shellshocked, it was just too much. Eye was sore but did ease before the next one! Then 2 days later I had my left eye done! My pressures are 20 and 24, I also have some peripheral vision lost in the lower left quadrant.
I’m sitting here typing this feeling extremely anxious about my future. I am so scared of going blind.
I am 59, but up until now I thought I was indestructible, always in good health and keen on fitness. I have 2 daughters 17 and 15, I want to be fit and capable for them and of course my husband (he is 10 years older).
Oh well this is about it, I can’t think of anything else to add (I hope there isn’t anything else to add)
Thank you for reading. 🙏