Thanks everyone for all the kind words and advise. I'm trying to stay positive which I think will get easier once we are doing treatments of some kind. Right now I just feel like I'm doing nothing. I'm thankful though to still be able to work for now, also anxious to see how treatments will effect me. I'm being treated at cancer treatment centers of America in Atlanta Ga. I'm sure they will discuss any clinical trials that I'm elligable for. I have never used facebook or twitter in my life but I am thankful for this community it's the only place I feel like it's ok to talk about it.