I'm sure you fine folks can tell by now that I try to stay positive in every way. I strive to be a ray of sunshine even after scrolling past post after post of grim and gray. Well, today I need some encouragement. I don't have many friends (same reason I have no pets - I have no time), so there is even more pressure on my husband to lead that role in my life as well as husband, father, provider, caretaker. He doesn't know how to cope with his own problems, let alone mine (and I mean that in an absolutely sincere and loving way) - His CP, the loss of his father at a young age, heartache after heartache, working his body to death, and coming home to a messy house because I'm feeling bad and two screaming kids because Mommy can't play with them (or give them their juice right that second). He's overwhelmed, and doesn't know how to help me. So, instead of sympathy or empathy, I receive anger in response to my pain, sadness and discomfort. I know it's not my fault, but it often redirects at me unintentionally. I'm just tired of life and being overwhelmed. And I'm tired of getting my feelings hurt (He does not do this to hurt me. He just has ZERO idea of how to help, and is overwhelmed himself - praise God that I am perceptive, understanding and resilient. I'm also blessed with an amazing sense of humor, a great family and a loving husband). I just need some encouragement today since I didn't receive real closure to our "discussion" late last night. I will get that from him later as well, but our schedules don't allow much time together, so I need a lil love to get me through
Thank y'all in advance