My days are lonely the night is blue, I try not to feel the way I do. My head spins round and round with not even a thought or a clue or clue of all the things I can and cannot do. I'm scared of the ones I love cause I always have been hurt deep inside, please help I don't want to cry. My body shakes and tremors all day long, how I wish no one saw. Seizures have taken control, I want to cry cause it feels so old, it will never go away I have to know, my thoughts and feelings is out of control. There's days I sit with nothing to do, and all I think about is you. I wish I wasn't this way I never been until the drama set in. I wish the past has never been until this trauma has set in. I wish the past has never been, I wish this all goes away, so I can be normal again. No one knows what we go threw, our minds we cannot control, are body's are threw. The pain we suffer no one will know, as we hide it deep in our soul. What I've become is someone I'm not, threw time and help it has to stop. I'm scared please I wish it would stop please stand bye my side so I don't drop. You have to understand I'll be normal again. Please stay bye my side till the end. I feel like I'm dying deep inside, please help me for I want to survive.