So, my first and only round of NHS funded IVF sadly failed confirmed last week.
By chance, a lady I met years ago at a wedding was at my clinic’s group meeting (we’d been friends on social media since but never met up). Since we realised we both share infertility in common we became closer and has luck (or not, depending on how you look at it) would have it our NHS cycles were within just days of each other.
Still grieving from my failed round, i received a text message from her earlier this week with a picture of her 2 positive pregnancy tests. I messaged her back congratulations and she replied how emotional this all is and how hard it is for her to get the positives and be so nervous that it sticks around.
She keeps messaging me now saying ‘how are you? Hope you’re ok?’ And i know you’ll all think im awful but i cant bring myself to reply 😔 of course im not ok, she wouldn’t understand her treatment worked for her first time, mine failed and im desperately sad about it. I just cant face talking to her at the moment.
Am i a terrible human being?😢