And I’m a nervous wreck.... been awake since 3am and my appointment is not until 3pm lol
I didn’t feel like this with my last transfer, this time I’m so nervous.
Every eventuality has gone through my mind this morning
What if my embryos don’t survive the thaw?
What if I don’t get a BFP? What if I MC again?
What if.... what if... what if...
The worst bit is I don’t have those words of encouragement from my closest friends and family this time around as we’ve chosen to keep this cycle to ourselves.
Although this was my idea I’m now slightly regretting the decision.
At least if all goes well it would be such a lovely surprise for everyone and if not at least I will not be inundated with calls texts and visits. It was so overwhelming having to explain over & over when I wanted to just curl up and cry...😭
Anyway thanks in advance for taking the time to read (listen) I would drive myself insane without this forum... i have found the good and sad posts so inspiring, especially seeing the way everyone continues to remain so positive throughout the most difficult times xxx ✨✨✨