Happy New Year Everyone

[Core]

Hi all, having a down day today and don’t feel like celebrating the end of this year. Social media is full of happy photos and posts and I feel full of things I can’t say anywhere but here. What I want to say is 2018 is the year I conquered my fear of needles and the year I started IVF, sadly it’s still not the year for my BFP but I do have quite a few embabies in the freezer so fingers crossed 2019 will be a year although struggling to feel positive at the moment. Sorry for the miserable post but I know it’s the one place people will understand.

Congratulations to all who had their BFP and babies this year, I love hearing your success stories and to all who haven’t heres hoping 2019 will be more successful xx

[Saya85]

Hi core -

I understand how you feel .... We just got back from hospital - HCG has dropped from 600 to 61. So that's pretty dismal and obviously we've lost the pregnancy

But I aim to pig out and enjoy tonight and use it as a way to recharge and pamper myself (!)

2019 will be our year - we have a plan and we have our little frostiest waiting for us

So let's comfort ourselves and spend our holidays with those that we love the most. Be grateful were not having to inject and medicate through the holidays.

Bring on the new year ! 💪

[Kari55 in reply to Saya85]

So sorry that the blood test has confirmed the miscarriage. I can sense that you are a strong lady, may 2019 be your year! X

[Saya85 in reply to Kari55]

Thank you.... I think I knew what they were going to say

But hubby is going to take it harder...I tried to prep him but he hates 'negative thinking '

He took it ok there....but I can already see him snapping at home....

I kinda feel numb but I think it will hit us both later

For now am keeping strong and I know it's not the end of the road for us

Lots of positives still

[Kari55 in reply to Saya85]

I can imagine, there will be a lot of emotions going on for some time but it’s so important to keep strong. I’m sure you will both bounce back and will keep going. Lots of cuddles with your husband today xx

[Hidden in reply to Saya85]

Yeah we have a scan tomorrow maybe to confirm pending mc will be our 3rd since Nov 17 my partner is pretty down just lying in bed and he whispered I can’t bear to hear them tell us again. Makes me want to go on my own than to put him through it again. He doesn’t show his emotions and tells me to try not to take it too hard where really he’s dying inside.

[Saya85 in reply to Hidden]

Aww I'm sorry to hear that. He's still holding out for a miracle on Wednesday while in dying in pain still taking all the meds and horrible injections while I'm cramping like crazy and now bleeding heavily again

Uterus wants to clear itself out but can't due to meds ... And we have to continue to wednesday 'just in case'

Fingers crossed for you tomorrow 😘

[Core in reply to Saya85]

Must be so hard having to keep going on the meds. I’m hoping for a miracle for you on Wednesday xx

[Core in reply to Saya85]

So sorry to hear your news, enjoy your treat night tonight very well deserved!xx

[Hidden]

It's not fair is it when you see others getting things that you want for you but it hasn't happened yet for you!

[Kari55]

You are not on your own with your struggle to feel positive. After 4 years of TTC and 2 failed ICSI’s, I’m also struggling with keeping my faith and finding hard to deal with never-ending pregnancy announcements. But we have to keep going in 2019 and fingers crossed this time next year, we will be mothers. For me 2019 is the last year of trying as we have decided to draw a line after another year. So it’s a deciding year 🤞🤞🤞 Best wishes to you xxx

[Core in reply to Kari55]

Thank you, been feeling so alone today but this group is a great support. Best of luck to you in 2019 hoping this is your year xx

[Shirazlover2013]

Happy end of year Core!! 2018 has been a downer of a year for me too, I’ll be happy to see the back of it. Tonight I’m going to continue to enjoy my favourite wines and bad for me cheeses, both in excess!!

Well done for conquering that fear of needles, it’s amazing what we can do when we are super determined 💪 I hope those frozen embabies come through for you in 2019. Having a plan is really good for feeling like we have some sort of control and direction in this strange place. That reminds me I need to work on my plan! Xx

[Core in reply to Shirazlover2013]

Thank you, hope you enjoy all those well earned treats tonight and fingers crossed for you in 2019 xx

[Hidden]

Hi Core,firstly I would like to say well done for conquering your fear of needles,it's really daunting isn't it when you receive your bag full of meds and needles!! I feel exactly the same as you. Currently undecided about whether to just get an early night or stay up with OH to bring in the New Year but it hasn't been a year to celebrate with 2 failed cycles (BFN 21st Dec) and a MMC end of Aug and next year will be tough with babies due. Maybe treat yourself tonight to all the things we shouldn't be eating and drinking and then when it's all over we can start to plan for next year and do what we need to do to feel strong and positive, it's really good that you have frosties so fingers crossed for you xx

[Core in reply to Hidden]

Really sorry to hear of your difficult year, hoping 2019 brings better things for you xx

[Daddu1]

Ya 2018 worst year for me as well.heart broken year. 2019 will bring good news,happy pregnancys, happy babies for all of us. We all start family and big 😂🤣family 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦💖💖.wish all the best for all of us.

[Core in reply to Daddu1]

Thank you so much for your positive message, everything 🤞 for all of us xx

[baby2016]

Happy new year Core, one thing this journey shows you is that ivf is not a quick process in anyway. Heres hoping one of your frozen embies is your take home baby waiting for that special day xx

[Core]

Thanks for all the support, defo ending the evening more positively! Here’s to a better year in 2019!xx

[Flimzee]

Hi there, I just wanted to wish you all a Happy New Year and share my story - I hope that is ok? This time last year (after miscarriages and a failed round of IVF) I was feeling like many of you have described. My neighbour was pregnant and we pulled out of spending NYE with them because we just couldn’t face it. Very miserable... we embarked on our second round of ivf in the beginning of 2018 and I really didn’t hold out much hope. But, to our utter surprise, it worked and I have a little baby who I wanted so much! So you really don’t know what might be round the corner. In this new year. I really hope 2019 brings you all success and peace. With lots of love xxx

[Core in reply to Flimzee]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It really does bring much hope, congratulations on your baby and thanks again for messaging xx

[Eltel81]

I feel your pain lovely. I too started ivf, had a chemical pregnancy, then BFN. I managed to pull myself out of my fug for Christmas and new year, but I’m a bit apprehensive about when normalacy sets in again. I’m sure some counselling will help so I best get on to planning that!

I wish you a very happy new year and I hope it’s a better one xxxx