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I am having a deja-vue :-(

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Sorry for constantly posting, I just really dont know what to do. I am in my 2ww my period should be due on saturday. Like last month I have just started spotting today - same day of the cycle. Although everyone told me that spotting can also be a positive sign, I see this aa a bad sign. I have EXACTLY the same feeling and spotting, so AF will arrive tomorrow or Saturday.

I know a lot of you ladies are in the same position, but I really dont know how much more I can take. 9 times in the 2ww in 1 year, 9 BFN. Kilos of Clomid without success, a total of 6 whole weeks of daily injections and byweekly scans and bloods since July/August.

This is the biggest cruelty I have ever experienced. I just want to wake up from this nightmare!


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I feel you lovely 😞 life is not fair. Hang on in there xx

Big hugs to you Sarahharas xx

I'm so sorry. I know exactly how you feel as I am in a very similar situation to you.

I'm just trying to stay as calm as I can until tomorrow and then again until the next day, I am going day by day.

This whole thing is horrendous and to think that despite it all, there may be no baby at the end of all this torture is simply heart breaking.

I wish you a call couple of days and your long awaited bfp, X.

This process can be so brutal at times. I'm wishing you all the luck in the world that it's not af this time, as symptoms can go either way. So hang on in there. It seems endless but it will pass xxx

This process is so tough and fingers crossed you get that BFP 🤞 xx

It is AF, in full heavy flow. Cramps included.

A crappy year is going to an end. Next year will be emotionally worse, I will have IVF and at some point we need to let it be as it is.

For now I am off my holidays for 3 weeks, and I am going to have loads of glasses of champagne, there were a couple of things to celebrate lately and I was left high and dry.

Good luck for all the rest of you!

Enjoy that champagne - you deserve it!!!

Hope your holidays give you a chance to put this difficult year behind you and reset physically and emotionally. Best of luck with the IVF when you decide to go for it but if at all possible give yourself a bit of a break before - you sound emotionally exhausted already from this process and it's better, for you, to start when you're feeling as well as possible, emotionally and physically. Hope 2019 is your year lovely xxx

Hi Sarah, 9 x 2ww and bfn in one year is so much to deal with. You definitely need a holiday. Really enjoy yourself, pamper yourself, do whatever you want to have a proper break. This journey is so tough. Now look after you for a bit. Xxx

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