Dear little dot,
You might not know it yet but you are all of our hopes and dreams. You were top of the grade from your class of 5 and made it down to the final 3 blastos. I can't help but feel sad that your potential siblings were deemed not good enough to freeze and it took all my might to not demand you were all put back where you belong- just so it felt like I was giving you all a chance. I'll admit I cried a bit knowing we didn't have any second chances to fall back on and that if for whatever reason you don't make it we would have to go through this draining journey all over again. In my head it all seems too much but I know in my heart I will do as many rounds as I need to to help us fulfil our dream.
Now I have had time to get used to the idea I can focus on you. I hope you find me comfy enough to want to stay and know that I will look after you. I know you have already given me a few niggles and twinges which gives me hope you are finding a place to settle. The embroyologist said you were top grade 5ab whatever that means... and you were put back in a 'textbook' position. Your dad and grandparents are being a tower of strength for us right now, determined and hopeful you will make it. So far I would describe myself as not negative but realistic, taking each day as it comes but also looking to the future whatever that maybe. I have started to believe a bit more that you have the strength to make it and hopefully, God willing, you, our little dot will make lots of other dots and then in a few months we will have a complete picture of you. Stay strong little dot. Xx