This feeling has taken me completely by surprise....

Hi, I hope that you're all doing ok whatever stage of your journey you are. I don't post anymore since the birth of my son and the end of my infertility journey but I do check in every couple of days to see how people are doing and offer support if I can.

One year ago today we had our two 2 average quality embryos transferred. I have been a total emotional wreck & I have no idea why! There has been a lot of tears from me & I'm struggling to find the reason....

I'm so grateful for where I am today but maybe the whole process took more of a toll than I had ever imagined or wish to admit. I think I'm still processing it all...

I'm really hope I haven't upset or offended anyone with this post, it was never my intention. Im not really sure who else to talk to about these emotions & I know how amazing people on here are. Thank you for letting me share in a place I feel comfortable & safe.

Wishing everyone all the luck in the world & a massive sprinkle of baby dust xxxx

[Tati14680]

Hi Pumpkin36, I am happy for where you are now and your post it is not upsetting. It is absolutely normal. The fact that your struggle with infertility is over, doesn't mean that you are not dealing with infertility anymore, you have still to process it. You went from all the worries during the treatments, to the worries of your pregnancy to the worries of your new born, there was not much time worries free so it is fine to still feel like a wreck. Do you have anyone to talk to? Sometimes some counselling can help. And it doesn't mean that you are ungrateful that that part of your journey over. But it was a journey and it changes people. I wish you all the best.

[Lynnr54]

I agree with Tati that it’s completely normal. If my calculations are correct your son is only 12 weeks so you still have loads of pregnancy and post partial hormones floating around. With the anniversary of transfer there’s no wonder it still hits you. My son is 2 and I still have the occasional breakdown over it all, particularly if I watch or read something about IVF or if there’s a day on the forum where it just seems to be a flow of bad news. I don’t know whether it’s the relief and gratefulness that it worked for me and he is here, or (more recently) the trying for a second via the same route. When I do have days like that I just let it come and have a good cry without feeling guilty about it. Then I’m usually ready to pick myself up and carry on. Hope you’re feeling better soon x

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Hey pumpkin. I think what you're feeling is normal. Just because you're now a mum your journey isn't really over, the emotions of everything you've been through can stay with you. I would suggest talking things through with someone if you can - it could be a bit of baby blues? If it's any consolation I'm 11 weeks and don't feel like I'm connecting with my pregnancy yet as much as I hate to admit it. I thought I'd feel elated but I'm constantly worried, however, I remember reading lots of other ladies feeling that way once they got their BFP. It's ok to admit if you're struggling with your emotions baby or no baby - all those years of heartache don't ever really go so please don't be too hard on yourself. Xx

[vic77]

I think this whole thing never leaves us no matter the outcome..we are always here for you xxx

[Leesalou]

Mines nearly coming up to. Year July 28 transfer day, it’s come round so quickly really has,

How old is your son mine is 14 weeks (7 corrected)

I always think about my ivf cycle and how lucky I was that it work after so long. Makes me emotional so it’s all normal x