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[Waitingforourmiracle]

Just wanted to say a big thank you to those who were so kind to me last night during my further scare. I don't think any of you will know how great it is to have this place to share things and get your mind put at ease or get given advice.

When I went to bed I was still wiping pink/red blood so I was expecting to wake up to game over and a pad full of blood. Thankfully I've woken up to just some brown patches on the pad and when I wipe now I'm just getting brown blood. This pregnancy is the scariest thing I've ever gone through and for done reason seems to want to punish me and hubby and give us daily worry.

I was so scared yesterday as I'd had the pain for about 5 minutes then the fresh red blood and I really thought it was over. Now it's fine to brown blood and no pain since I can relax a bit again - however I still would feel better if I had any idea what it might have been. I feel like could it have been a cyst that burst as right after the pain I had the red blood that gradually lessened and went to pink then brown blood?

Anyway yet again we are living day to day and waiting for Friday mornings scan - thankfully it's at 8.30am so don't have the whole day to wait and if that scan is ok we have our clinics scan the following Tuesday - if we make that then I think our clinic will be shocked to see we've had two scans prior to theirs!

We also booked our summer holiday last night to cheer us up. We decided on end of May when we found out I was pregnant and in some ways I didn't want to book it yet in case we jinx the pregnancy with all the spotting - we both decided that whatever outcome over the next week we would need a holiday so we booked it - a 5* all inclusive hotel with a swim up room in Cyprus. I cannot wait - wish I could fast forward to it now and then we'd know if we still had a baby on board or not.

Sorry for the hugely long post but I just wanted to update you all and let you know how much I appreciate you all, another page I'm on aren't nearly as helpful when people are having worries so I rely on you guys and appreciate you so much.

Love and sticky baby dust to all xx

[Minibud]

Morning

So glad that the bleeding has eased and you feel more comfortable.

Sending lots of love and sticky baby dust to you over the next few weeks.

I've bleed again through night, but red. So I've rang clinic this morning and they'e got me in this afternoon. Scared and anxious don't even come close to describing way I am feeling but I suppose what will be will be.

Xxx

[Waitingforourmiracle in reply to Minibud]

Oh darling (& fellow pug lover!) I'm so sorry you are having to go through this torture too - I know how exhausting it is. I'm glad your clinic are seeing you today - what time is your appointment? Hoping baby is just being naughty and that all is ok. Let me know, thinking of you xx

[Minibud in reply to Waitingforourmiracle]

3pm hunnie. She's actually a bull Mastiff ha ha....with the face of a pug xx

[lianm8 in reply to Minibud]

Good luck let us know how you get on 💗💗

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Minibud]

I love her iv got two bull mastiffs they're my favourite dogs in the world 💗🤗😘

[destiny121]

Ahhh bless you..... um looking for holidayd too....where in cyprus are you heading?😎😎

[Waitingforourmiracle in reply to destiny121]

We are going to the mare village resort in aya napa (but it's away from the clubbing scene thankfully)

[Cinderella5]

Ahhh what a lovely message! Im so glad to hear that things have settled again for you, you'll be too scared to move. Your holiday will be just the ticket for something to look forward to, you deserve something nice and it sounds amazing!xx

[Waitingforourmiracle in reply to Cinderella5]

I literally don't want to breathe. I keep saying to hubby why can't I just be put to sleep for the next 5-6 weeks and wake up for the 12 week scan

[Cinderella5 in reply to Waitingforourmiracle]

Everything crossed for Friday!xx

[DC13]

oh you poor love. I hope your scan goes well on Friday. Try and rest if you can - easier said than done!!!

Good on you for booking holiday. why the hell not. A very wise decision.

Good luck to you

xxx

[Waitingforourmiracle in reply to DC13]

Thank you. We had always said if this ivf worked we'd go away in may. Had it not worked we had planned to have another frozen transfer, another fresh one and then go away somewhere really exotic like Maldives at the end of the year if none of those worked. We never considered what we'd do if we lost a pregnancy. But in the last few days we decided that if the worst happened we'd need a holiday and break before having any further goes so booked some luxury

[Amanda86]

A holiday sounds like just what you need and will be lovely.

Really hope your bleeding eases so you can start to enjoy your pregnancy more without the worry 🤗 xxx

[Waitingforourmiracle in reply to Amanda86]

Me too! I always pictured loving every minute of being pregnant and hated seeing people moan about being pregnant but this has honestly been the most terrifying experience of my life. I think having lost before it just makes it worse

[Amanda86 in reply to Waitingforourmiracle]

Seems a lot of us have the tough journey of getting pregnant and then the tough journey continues with various issues 😬

Yes it’s very scary, fingers crossed for you 🤞 xxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Bless ya hun. It's been real hard for you hasn't it, I hope Friday can offer you reassurance and you can start to enjoy this pregnancy, good on you for booking your holiday sounds lush my besty is getting married In Cyprus in may and we've had to purspone our holiday to Dubai due to my sickness we we're due to go end of next week,😣 but it'll be much better when I'm better. Try to relax and keep your mind occupied lovely good your scan is super early, thinking of you 💗🤗😘

[hoping-for-the-best]

So glad to hear this, I was wondering how you were getting on. I think you’d mentioned they had told you at the scan to expect some more bleeding so you should take heart from that, even though it doesn’t make it any less scary. Glad it’s eased off and you can relax a little. The holiday sounds like a very good idea and an amazing location! I’m Sure you will appreciate the break when it comes. 😊xxx

[Hidden]

Yay, so happy. Fingers crossed that is all your discharges over with! Try to relax for the rest of the week. But we are all here if you need us as you know xxx

[Waitingforourmiracle in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. The brown has almost gone now too on wiping. I'm hoping that maybe it was a cyst that was gradually bursting or something and that was causing the spotting and that it finally went completely yesterday and that'll be the end of it. I'm not medical though so probably not - just wishful thinking.

[Hidden in reply to Waitingforourmiracle]

Just try to relax (so much easier said than done) he he xx

[sunshineyellow]

Keeping my fingers crossed for you xx

[emu2016]

So pleased we can all be here for you x

[Waitingforourmiracle in reply to emu2016]

Thank you. Still getting the odd ache on my right ovary area and still some brown blood when I wipe with tiny stringy bits in but not as much as yesterday/this morning.

Just feeling a bit mentally drained from it all now and hubby is struggling with work and this - I feel helpless

[emu2016 in reply to Waitingforourmiracle]

Just concentrate on this baby. It needs all the energy from you. You and hubby find the opportunity for cuddles when you can x

[Looby25]

Been thinking of you! Hope you’re doing ok and resting when you can! And i also wanted to say I have no problem what’s so ever with photos of spotting/blood! If some one has experienced it before and can comment then it might be able to help not only you but others too!! I’ve got everything crossed for you both on Friday! Sending lots of baby dust ✨💫 x x

[Jm82]

Glad to hear and wishing you all the luck in the world for Friday xx

[littlemisstired80]

Just wanted to say what you are going through I went through very similar. I found out I was pregnant then around 4 1/2 weeks had awful low right pain and some spotting and my gp suspected an ectopic. Off to the hospital I go where I am scanned. Too early to see anything so I go back a week later and there is the sac and yolk I bled on and uptil 10 weeks and have 5 EPU trips where they scanned me regularly. I had right ovary pain a lot too but at around 10 weeks all stopped and I now have my 5 month old Noah. I too worried my whole pregnancy away especially as I got diagnosed with gestational diabetes too at 24 weeks. I wanted to enjoy it but was to scared to start planning. Just wanted to say don't worry (easier said than done I know) but bleeding very common in pregnancy as in the aches and pains as the ligaments start stretching as soon as egg implanted. I had period type pains the whole pregnancy. Good luck for Friday hun xx

[Waitingforourmiracle in reply to littlemisstired80]

I'm literally sat here in tears at your lovely reply. It's so bloody terrifying when you see blood especially when I've had a mmc before. Replies like yours really help to ease my worries in the meantime. I don't think anything could ever reassure me 100% until we see that scan that everything is ok but hearing from people like you that have experienced the same gives me so much comfort in the meantime so thank you

[littlemisstired80 in reply to Waitingforourmiracle]

Sorry about all the typos earlier!! Oh i understand hun. I had a miscarriage 6 weeks before I fell pregnant with Noah on Christmas Day of all days so when I saw the positive again and then the bleeding, pain etc I was like here I go again but he was a little fighter and no complications throughout. I would worry every week when I saw more blood that then turned brown until I saw that little heartbeat at just under 7 week pregnant. Then had more bleeding at 9w6d and an emergency trip to EPU. I was convinced that was it as had horrid period pains too but there on the screen was my little peanut (looked just like a monkey nut lol) with a hand waving!!! They aren't allowed to print photos off but she did me a sneaky one lol. After that no more bleeding but period pains whole pregnancy which I now know was the ligaments in the womb stretching. I am sure Friday you will go and see your little baby on the scan. Stay positive hun, good luck xx