It’s all over

[Sharonl75]

Hi ladies. Today I’m adding to the number of BFNs recently. I’m gutted-was at work giving a course all day and hadn’t been thinking about it (unusually!) and at first coffee break-there it was -AF. I’d resisted testing up to now and was sure it might have been our time as was getting nausea and no sign of any bleed.

But then I had to come out and continue giving the course for the rest of the day, pretend everything was ok and listen and answer their questions when all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry (which is what I’m now doing in the privacy of my hotel). I’m away from home at the moment and have to take the course again tomorrow so can’t even get a hug from hubby.

So upset and frustrated-thinking any signs were positive and this would be our time. I’m devastated 😢

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry to hear this. Thinking of you and hope you get home soon to get a big hug from the hubby. Be kind to yourself xxx

[Sharonl75 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Zoe. Looking forward to getting home tomorrow night!! The support on here really helps though. Thanks for your message.x

[Tugsgirl]

Truly sorry for you and sending you the biggest virtual hugs xx

[Sharonl75 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank Tugsgirl. Virtual hugs gratefully received!! It’s comforting to have the support on here. It makes this journey not such a lonely one.x

[Lou7744]

Aww... if I could give you a big hug, I would! It’s a truly rubbish time. My official testing today was today, but I knew on the weekend that it hadn’t worked. I’m so proud of you getting through the day, you’re a strong person 💕 xx

[Sharonl75 in reply to Lou7744]

Thanks Lou-virtual hug very welcome this evening. Knowing there are people on here who know all about this journey and how it feels really helps as very few people can understand who haven’t been through it. All the women on here are so strong.x

[Sharonl75 in reply to Lou7744]

Ps sorry to hear about your bfn as well. Hugs to you too.x

[7AVA]

So sorry to hear this Sharonl75. There are no words to make it easier. Be very kind to yourself tonight. You were amazing to keep going today. Sending strength to carry on tomorrow and a virtual hug until you can have one from your husband. Xxx

[Sharonl75 in reply to 7AVA]

Thank you so much for your reply. It’s just such a tough journey, isn’t it!? The support on here really helps. I just wish we could all have our dreams come true. ☹️

[Cinderella5]

Awww I'm so sorry Sharon, it's heck of a hard when it doesn't work out. Sending hugs!!xx

[Sharonl75 in reply to Cinderella5]

It is Cinderella. It’s so unfair we all have to go through this rollercoaster journey. Next time will be my time (I hope!)

[Hidden]

This is just awful - I feel so terrible for you being away from home while this is going on as well. What an amazing thing to come out and continue with the rest of your day to keep things normal for everyone else - truly inspiring. Wishing you all the best for now and the future xxx

[Sharonl75 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Penright. I’m just gutted and I think it’s so hard knowing that you can’t just get going again immediately. I think it’s probably in all our natures to think how we can fix it and what we can do differently. So yes-will dust myself off and have another go and hope for a different outcome next time. Thanks for your kind words. The support on here really helps through the tough days.x

[Hidden in reply to Sharonl75]

Yes, the support here has been a godsend. I'd have fallen apart without it (I very nearly did!). I hope you cope ok in the coming days. Getting that long awaited hug from your hubby will help, and take a little time to fall apart if that's what you need to do. Letting those tears flow is such an important part of the healing process. Sending you lots of love xxx

[E_05]

So sorry to read this, you were so strong to keep going today and knowing you have to do the same tomorrow. Thinking of you xx

[Sharonl75 in reply to E_05]

Thanks for your message. All the ladies on here are so strong. It really helps to have the support on here.x

[lianm8]

I’m so sorry to hear this xxx look after yourself xxx

[Sharonl75 in reply to lianm8]

Thanks lianm8. This journey can be exhausting!

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry to hear this am thinking of you xx

[Sharonl75 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Katrina. Just to know there are like minded people on this group who understand the stresses and journey we all go through helps. People who don’t go through this can never really understand the emotional rollercoaster this is and the toll on our poor bodies.x

[JULIETJAM]

Really sorry to hear that Sharon. May God Make you strong. Hugs x

[Sharonl75 in reply to JULIETJAM]

Thanks JulietJam. I need all the prayers possible at the moment. I just feel so deflated☹️ Congrats on your BFP.x

[Minibud]

Awww Sharon big hugs. I work away from home to and when things are tough it's the worst. Thinking of you xx

[Sharonl75 in reply to Minibud]

Thanks Minibud-it feels like a million miles away at times doesn’t it!?

Thanks for your reply.x

[emu2016]

Sending hugs. It’s hard enough as it is without the added sadness of being without your loved one when you need them xx

[Sharonl75 in reply to emu2016]

Thanks emu2016. It’s so tough-today was my OTD but as I was away we’d decided to wait until Thursday morning when we’d both be together. Unfortunately that was wishful thinking. Can’t wait to get home and get a big hug!! Thanks for replying.x

[Dunla]

Oh no you poor thing. I’m so sorry to hear this and that you are having to go through all of this whilst away from home. Sending you lots of love xx

[Sharonl75 in reply to Dunla]

Thanks Dunla. It’s so tough isn’t it? Looking forward to getting home for a big hug.x

[Dunla in reply to Sharonl75]

It really is tough. I’m thinking of you pet xx

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

I'm so sorry and know exactly how you feel as I have been there more than once. xx

[Hidden]

Awwwww big hugs we all know this pain x

[Scarlett13]

Can't believe the timing of your AF. Well done for being brave and having to carry on when you'd much rather be at home with your hubby. I was away on my own when my AF came last time too - it was awful. So sad. I really feel for you. Hope you find the strength to pick yourself up and try again when you're ready xxx

[vic77]

so so sorry to read this. you are so brave to keep going at work..it is just the worst feeling ever..allow yourself to grieve. hoping when you are back with your hubby you can share the pain and hold each other tight. take care of yourself xxx

[Dreamingofbaby]

So sorry for u. Truely is soo hard. Not easy being away from home and facing it too. Big hugs ☺️x

[Missy_22]

I’m so sorry to hear this life is so cruel and hard. Look after yourself xxx

[lorraineb61]

Oh no, AF is bad enough at the best of times but to get this result whilst on your own is the worst. Hopefully today's course will pass quickly & you can get home to hubby xx

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry. I think your attitude is inspiring so positive- wish I was more like that. Take care and re group yourselves when it’s less raw xoxo

[Wishfully]

Oh my goodness, my heart goes out to you. You are so strong & brave pushing on with work. Sending you the warmest hugs xxx

[Amanda86]

So sorry to hear this 🙁 xxx

[AS100]

Loads of love and hugs xxx 💜💜💜

[Sharonl75]

Thanks everyone for your comments. Now on the train back home (slightly later than planned as walked out and left my laptop behind, was on the train when I realised and had to get off the train to go back and collect it so will be home an hour later than planned!) obviously my brain is fried!!

Looking forward to getting back home, having a cry with hubby and picking ourselves back up ready to face the next round as soon as we can! (Times not on my side unfortunately ☹️)

Thank you all again for your kind words of comfort. It really helps so much to get through those dark and challenging times and know we’re not alone in this journey. Good luck to you all. I wish we could all have our dreams of motherhood come true. Maybe some day....xxx