Just for once couldn't things be easy??

We just came back from the hospital: after 2 years ttc it was the time to see if we were approved for the NHS funded IVF cycle. Nobody wants to get to that point but, if you do, yoy want to get at least this only funded opportunity.

Ok, alright. The doctor was great: she was a chinese woman, she explained everything (for the first time somebody did it!), she was empathetic but honest and very helpful. We should receive our funded cycle.

But what happens now? That it's only three months before I turn 35. The GP checked this and as long as I was referred before that age, It should be fine. But no: the treatment has to start before that age. I only have 3 months left, that is, three cycles.

Of course, I am having my period next Monday. And I wouldn't be able to start before that. When is the next one expected? 1st of January. We both are from Spain and where going to spend Christmas there. What happens now? Could we do It then? Do we just forget about Christmas and wait to see what happens? Will they start a treatment, scans, etc on 1st January?

If I am missing two cycles like this, I only have one left. I am so mad at my body and myself because it's my Birthday, and it's my body having periods on those days and there is nothing I can do about it.

And I know it's just forgetting about Christmas and family, and that is nothing compared to how important It is for us to have a baby. But with my luck, I am sure my period would be delayed and we would miss the holidays for nothing.

Doesn't matter how much I do. You wouldn't believe how much I have done to be better, to feel better, more positive in the last year, and how much I have improved. But doesn't matter, because luck is never with me. I know there are much more important things and that I should be greatful, but for once, just for once, couldn't it be easy? Or affordable? Just for once??!!

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

If you can get the medication before the start of your next cycle you might be able to start. You do the injections yourself so could take them to Spain if necessary. Did the dr say whether she will put you on long or short protocol? If it’s long protocol then the drugs normally start in day 21 of your cycle so you would be back from Spain if you start next cycle. I’d say you need to urgently make sure you get all the necessary blood tests and other things done as soon as possible as they won’t start you until you are confirmed clear of hiv etc. I think you still have a very good chance of getting in before time runs out, but I feel your pain about the stress of it all.

[Hidden in reply to Lizzielizzielizzie]

Thanks Lizzie,

Yes, I don't know, I guess we just have to wait and see. And accept the idea that we have to sacrifice the Christmas and the family this time. I know I shouldn't complaint, but It just feels like a permanent fight, constantly fighting for everything... I was so good and so strong and now I am locked in the toilet at work because I am crying non-stop. Even makes me laugh 😂

[Lizzielizzielizzie in reply to Hidden]

It is a battle all the way. No question.

Seriously, don’t give up on Xmas, you shouldn’t need to be in this country unless you are at the scan stage. Can you try and pin your clinic down on exactly what still needs to be done and what they think the timescales are?