3rd time .. Not feeling excited

[Raglee]

Hi ladies haven't posted in a while but been following everyone's stories and so super to see all the BFP's and scan pics. I'm just currently sitting waiting for the call from the embryologist to tell us if our final Frostie has survived the the thaw before we travel for our transfer.

I have been so excited and hopeful the last two times I was in this position but today I just feel numb. I have had an ectopic and a misscarraige at 7 weeks so I think I'm dreading more of the same with this one and not sure my head / heart could handle another whack of that..

I also feel bad for feeling negative as I know your supposed to stay positive. So I guess I'm just looking for some positive reassurance that all will be ok !

This process really does test your sanity !!

Love Emma X

[baby2016]

Aww Raglee, I know that feeling. I feel like this 4th round has gone in a flash, with not much excitement. On the plus side it means I've been much calmer so think it may be for the best anyway. Your feeling is normal, especially after previous losses. Keep strong but just try and relax. Good luck to you xx

[Tugsgirl]

As I approach cycle no.3 I know exactly what you mean! First cycle was both daunting and exciting. Second, my fet, I was less excited but also less daunted. This cycle coming I don't seem to be able to muster any excitement. I'm scared either way; bfp or bfn.

I hope you've got good news from your call, it's a tense wait.. keep us posted 🍀 xx

[Sara_123]

Can't say more... Just want to wish you all the best.. Xx

[Raglee]

Thanks so much for your replies girls. Is it bad that it makes me feel less crazy that you both feel like this although at Same time I'm sorry you both feel like this.

We just got call to say it survived the thaw, it's the least quality one we had in the pot but I'm hoping this one the fighter.

Sending you both my love and support for your next cycle X

[Tugsgirl in reply to Raglee]

Fingers crossed it's the "one". Don't get hung up on the grades. My bfp was a lower grade than our fresh bfn. You see it all the time on here.

Ps it's not bad to be comforted by people going through the same experiences, it's what we're all here for xx

[Raglee in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thanks so much vic , you and the ladies on here have Defo made me feel less nuts today!! Transfer all done , when u think yours will be ? X

[Tugsgirl in reply to Raglee]

Oh dear now for the tww crazies eh 🤣

Mine will be just under a month I think. It's a natural modified cycle so all depends on which day I ovulate (can be as early as cd14 or as late as cd20, but my average is around cd17) xx

[Raglee in reply to Tugsgirl]

That will fly in , and so nice to have non medicated , no more headaches please god X

[Tugsgirl in reply to Raglee]

No. Buserelin was an absolute nightmare! However I will be doing the pessaries and hrt patches as well as a daily injection of Lubion after transfer. If I get a bfp I'll have to keep up with the injections as well as the pessaries. I'll be having scans every other day from cd10 too 🤞 Small price to pay though if it works 🙏🏻 xx

[Raglee in reply to Tugsgirl]

Golly that's not too diff to me after all except the ovulation part. I'm just on hrt tablets and pessaries ( bloody hate them) but hey as you say , if it works. Well I have more than everything crossed fur you Vicky X

[Tugsgirl in reply to Raglee]

Ditto Emma 😘 X

[baby2016 in reply to Raglee]

We're all slightly crazy! Haha! My mate had 4 frozen, and it was the last one with the least quality that worked! She's now 31wks pregnant and had miscarried with all the others very early on so have faith....they last key always fits the lock as they say! Xx

[Raglee in reply to baby2016]

Oh wow , what a super expression, in totally going to use that. That's super news for your friend X

[Georgina78]

Hey Raglee, nice to hear from you again..I felt exactly the same on my 3rd & 4th cycles. I think it's just because you've had your fingers burnt so to speak, so of course you're going to be wary of what can happen. I too felt guilty because everyone tells you to be positive but it's so much easier said than done!

I really hope this cycle goes well and brings lovely news xx

[Raglee in reply to Georgina78]

Thanks so much Georgina X

[Bubblez]

Be strong Emma, I am with you. I had blood test yesterday, 3rd attempt failed.... Have to do it again....numb...

[Raglee in reply to Bubblez]

Bubblez I'm so so sorry to hear that. I hope yin are surrounding yourself with loved ones right now, life can just be so cruel xx

[Bubblez in reply to Raglee]

Thanks... it is cruel...out of controll completely. I've never got an implantation though...3 times...low reserve eggs

[London7]

Don't feel bad about not being positive. You can't help how you feel. Of course, it is better for your own mental health to feel positive. But did you know that no study has ever shown that feeling down or stressed damages your prospects of conceiving - the studies about stress and pregnancy all concern catastrophic life events (death of a close family member etc) and not the stress of infertility or depression caused by it. And even with catastrophic events - women get pregnant in war zones all the time. So it is one thing that science says you can totally take off your list of things to worry about! Good luck x

[Raglee in reply to London7]

Thanks London7, that is such a good way to look at it and so true. I guess natures gonna do what it's gonna do, thanks so much for your reply X