9dpt BFP & black/brown blood … opinions please.

[Chowlady14]

I can’t believe I’m back in this position but here goes. After having a chemical pregnancy on our last transfer back in May I was delighted when I started getting positive frer from 4dp 5dpt of double hatching embryos (PGD tested) our clinic is abroad so allows this. However despite my tests being darker than last cycle at this point the last 2 days I’ve had the most horrendous black/brown stringy discharge and there is a considerable amount of it.

I did IVF back in 2020 and had a horrible similar experience which resulted in my gorgeous perfect crazy 3 year old so I know first hand there is a possibility this could still have a positive outcome but I can’t shake the negativity. I feel depressed. I can’t eat, I just want to sleep, I don’t want to be around anybody so locking myself away in my room. I’m so disappointed in my behaviour but I’m distraught. I feel like it’s triggering all sorts of negative emotions. I have a really thin lining which we’ve tried over 2 years to thicken, I had 7 cycles cancelled consecutively so the last 2 we’ve transferred on 6mm and I can’t help but think that’s the reason it’s not working and now I feel guilty like I’ve subjected perfect embryos to a terrible lining.

My question is does anybody know a reason for what might be causing this other than the likely impending miscarriage? Could it be that I have endometriosis and this cells shedding from that and not my uterus? Also I’m on so much progesterone. Cyclogest morning and night and afternoon injections. How can this bleeding have started the day before my period was even due? My clinic have been really unhelpful and quite abrupt with me. They simply said it can’t be your period because of the medication so carry on taking it. The frer test today looks identical to yesterday’s so no progression (which is throwing me down a negative hole) but a lovely positive. I’m going to test again tomorrow to see if it fades but any views or similar success stories would be appreciated.

I’m such a pessimist I promised myself this journey wouldn’t be a repeat of 2020 and May this year but here I am throwing good money after bad to put myself and my family through this torture.

Bottom test is todays which is 9dpt (technically 8.5dpt as my transfer was 5pm)