Finding it hard to cope😢

[Bw_123]

I had a miscarriage in june, I really really wanted the baby me and my boyfriend were so happy. The miscarriage was the hardest thing I’ve been through and I’m still really struggling. I really wanted to try for a baby and my boyfriend doesn’t want to now, my best friend has now just recently told me she’s pregnant and texts me everyday about it and now I’m struggling even more as I just want a baby 😭 I wake up every morning with a heavy heart how do I get over this, how do I stop myself wanting a baby? I’m really loosing the will to go on it’s affecting me so much. I feel like I can’t even talk to my boyfriend about it now as he can’t understand or doesn’t want one anymore and now I don’t have my best friend either

[Karinyaa]

Oh luv, I'm so sorry to hear this.. I absolutely understand the way you're feeling. Time ago when dh and I were just ttc, the bestie of mine announced she wanted a baby. Then in a couple of weeks she just told me – ''Ok, my LO is on board'' !!! I've tended to be happy for them. And jealous at the same time. Every success story was like an impetus to carry on with my own struggles without complaining.. as I was being pumped with the hope that some day soon even I would get to taste the success with conceiving!! Finally we went a LONG way through.. These were IUIs, ICSIs with own egg and donor egg at the end.. We paid out of the pocket. We saved more and then paid again. We took loans.. We could escape all this financial burden if were told earlier own eggs were not going to work at all!! Our new sr at BTC was frank with us. She offered us the ways out and we agreed. We both trusted her and did right, as time showed.

I know this is not your story. Still I wanted to say your first failure doesn't mean you won't be a mom one day. You will !! I'm not sure what should I say as for your partner. Be this he or sb else – you will be a mom!