im so lonely

i lost my son due to miscarriage about a year and 4 months back. So my sister left her son in my care for 6 months. It helped me so much i was happy and not depressed but then she took him away. It was so hard to see a child that a raised for 6 months just be ripped away from me. Hearing his cry for me tore me apart, but shes his mother so i couldn't do anything. Since then iv been so depressed and lonely i don't know what to do. All my family tells me is to get a job, get over it he wasn't even my kid. What they don't understand was while i was taking care of the baby he was helping me heal from the lose of my child. They don't understand that i saw him as my own and loved him so much. im so alone and my panic attacks are back so is my anxiety i just don't know what to do any more.

[Alisha79]

Hey,I’m sorry to hear ur going thru a hard time. It’s very hard and upsetting even just reading abt it. People don’t understand how hard it can be especially after losing a child. U have looked after ur sisters kid n that’s helped u,it’s not right to tell u to get over it or get a job. If it’s that simple u would have done it but it’s not. Pls take time n grieve properly. Speak to someone n get help. I pray u feel better. We are here if u wanna chat. X