Seeing seizures on video?

[peter-o]

I've been wondering how many have seen their own seizures on video. I've had tonic-clonics in due to my TLE, and I've only seen one video a couple minutes long while I was in an ER. In a large way I've been dying to see more videos of my seizures due to a huge general disbelief and comprehension of my situation. I've had surgery but it's a matter of a swirling system of paranoid disbelief and messed up thinking... it's hard to watch the video I do have but I have a huge feeling it would be good to be able to numb that sensation down quite a bit with an actual belief set.