So.... after my second hospital appointment in 2 months I am now signed up for my second surgery. Whilst some dread this I am actually glad as it is the only thing that has given me some relief (my first was 2 years ago with stage 4 endo). 6 months post op I ran a 10k to raise money for endometriosis and raised a few hundred pounds and i felt great.
I'm 28 and really want to start a family but this is proving difficult, more so in the past 3 months it has been almost impossible due to the pain. But hopefully after surgery this will ease.
I've been sitting thinking about whether the things I think about are common....
When it's period time sometimes I hope it comes quicker so I get that dreaded week out the way.
I hate making social plans as usually when the day comes I'm in pain or not up for it.
If I do make it to anything social I am always the driver as alcohol just seems to make it worst but that's hard to explain to people.
I feel like I could sleep for Great Britain half way through the day.
I have a "normal" clothes wardrobe and an endo wardrobe which essentially is black, baggy with a lot of loose leggings or joggers.
I don't feel particularly sexy as a wife as my husband has truly seen me at my worst and recently this had been most days.
I don't know how we get the word out there to others but I think it's becoming more and more important and although sometimes embarrassing or comfortable the more we talk about it the more it is recognised. I watch all these adverts for cancer and raising money and or awareness and although it is an awful disease endometriosis is DEVESTATING!!! Some days I can't be bothered with the next and it has completely changed my life and what I thought my future would be. I truly believe women who have this disease must have extreme mental strength not only to complete a day but to deal with intense pain.
I would love to start a blog or vlog for this, if anyone knows of good websites for this I would love to do it and show a REAL version of the truth.
Stay strong ladies!!!!