...I have worries that may or may not be reality, maybe I'm being overanxious and I'm finding a problem that isn't really there...any information you can give me regarding the overall picture will be greatly received as I'm just looking for pointers to help my research into it.
Here's my thought process; a few days ago I noticed on my pad that I had some strange spots, they were perfect circles and not red, they were kind of chalky white coloured in the centre and kind of caramel/light brown outer ring, the size of oooh a 10p piece. I've never seen anything like it, they were high on my pad too high for them to have come from my bum I would have noticed and felt had my underwear slipped that far back. I've not seen them since.
This morning I woke up and went the loo as per and although I hadn't bled so much over night, it was dark blood but the underlying shade was even darker and to one side, it was very strange I'm struggling to compare it and I thought hmmm that's strange...
My physical appearance (down there) has changed over the last couple of years, the bit between the holes has kind of ridged causing my vaginal opening to be extended and pulled back closer to my back passage, in turn the passage is protected by the ridge and creates a deep kind of crater effect into my back passage. Occasionally the ridge flattens out slightly and when this happens it kind of sinks inwards and my openings are only millimetres apart. It doesn't stay like this for long before the ridge comes back. It isn't painful in the PAIN sense but it does ache sometimes. It doesn't effect (performance) either sometimes it tugs...
My MRI and Lap revealed my right ovary attached to my rectum, I have 2 nodules, one is attached flat surface to flat surface with my ovary and the nodule is the reason my ovary is stuck down there, they are perforating deeper into the rectum and close to reaching muscle. The other nodule is slightly higher and its the opposite side as the other one and inside my passage causing a restriction. This one has perforated the muscle and is close to breaking free and becoming trapped inside the entire wall poking through each side. They are both practically identical and both pose the potential to rip a hole in my bowel.
This morning after being up about 10 minutes, I'd already had my wee, I just sat down and I got the most awful spasm in my bum, it passed in seconds and then I had a lingering pain from one or the other of the nodules, not my ovary they have a very distinct sensation when they hurt. This pain was accompanied by the pressure of my waste pushing down about 4/5 inches above my actual opening.
Here's where I began to panic a bit...it felt like I needed to poop from my Mary, from the back wall, the closest bit to my bowel. As you'd expect I managed to get to the loo, doubled over with a stinging sensation in my outer genital area (usually its just my back passage)
I've noticed my movements have been dryer, harder, and more broken up than they used to be. Old poop taken a long time to work its way through my digestive system, a constipation poo I call them.
Here's where my mind was racing I don't know what to make of this...
I went and it was OK not too painful just felt a bit raw round the actual hole the ridge was up and its pretty pointed its practically sharp when I'm ON the loo. I wiped and as most women do its two swipes, backwards and forwards as my mummy taught me. During my period I like to go forwards first and I just dabbed my clots have been pretty bad, first touch revealed...I'm so sorry if this is too graphic but I really need the advice...my first dab over my vaginal opening revealed blood to the other edges and the interior circle was slimy poo it appeared to me that it had been expelled from the front and not the back...this happened a few weeks ago too again on my period but the pain was just classic movement pain.
Neither episode has panicked me enough to say I need to go to hospital, am I reading too much into this???