Oooo, that felt good saying! I have lived in a wonderful world where I ignore it, struggle on and pretend all is fine and this forum has made me realise it's okay to admit something is wrong!
I had a cyst and endo zapped at 24, was told to hurry up and have kids, haven't but did a lot of other cool stuff, and then at 35 we started trying with a not too surprising story following. Reading your stories I think I have a high pain threshold and a body that hides things but I have still never been right. Surgery last week was good, except a mis-communication still means I have tubes and need more surgery before IVF. That upset me no end! However, it is nice to stretch and not feel like I am glued together inside for the first time in ages though!
Today I have decided not to cry all day any more, I'm getting sick of myself! I am meant to be a big strong woman right? Lol, anyway between the odd sneaky sobs I am working on getting better and getting back to work, which I love, and then the next step. I would say by the end of the summer IVF will have started. I think my attitude could my biggest barrier if I feel sorry for myself. Something's changed this week though and I have admitted I need help and support, well as a couple we do, a broken leg is fine to talk about with friends so what's different? So, I'll be popping on here more often and hoping to help anyone else who's having a wobble too.
If any of you are in West Wales please get in touch, there's no support group this side of Cardiff and (although the online one is fab) I would be up for tea / cake / walks with anyone around here for a natter.