Good for you! Be patient. I imagine it will probably take time to unpick the complicated strategies you've created to cope, and there will still be dark days. But keep going. Very best wishes!

I am going through the same. I blame it on my family.... I hide it from everyone that this is why I was a introvert!! I am now beginning to talk about my dyslexia or learning disability that I call. I haven't been diagnosis with ADHD but I believe that I have it. I am very afraid. One, my dad who I talk to don't want me to go there. Two, I have a mental illness which I feel I got because childhood abuse which is developed from the many learning disabilities!! I don't know how to get help?? Ironically, I am working on the mi/childhood abuse but dyslexia/others related scares me but I put myself through college to overcome/work on learning disabilities!! So I am working on them!! With all the self work, I should feel empowered as I come from a narcissistic family which I am the opposite like the black sheep!! It is that I am terrible with relationships=people!! Could it be the autism of me?? As I noticed that I talked about this and put into autism. I looked into it as I read into this, as I worked into this. I don't want to have mental illnesses based on personality disorders!! I have to remember this. Therefore, I should get to know the authentic me! As this is the package that is dealt!!

You fit my description exactly same problem but so much more other stuff is involved that I don't even know where to begin the worst part is the mood involvement and having to start over again when practically reaching nothing it's always within the ideas but never in practicality and then you are told that it's your fault when you can't even describe your problem to begin with and noone's there to help when you need it the most and then the moods once again ah...