Update

[Elemis]

Hope everyone is well.Sometimes a reminder to ones self is required.I have been doing great over the last few months hardly touching alcohol. Attended a celebration yesterday and when i got home the booze devil got me out of the blue and as a result i had several glasses of wine. Thankfully i didnt end up being rude or abusive to family members but was a huge reminder of the person i once was which i dont ever want to be again.Tomorrows another day so onwards and upwards , im back on track.If you have the odd wobble and get caught by the BD dont beat yourself up just start over and be positive.

[SoberDrunk1]

The book AA calls it the peculiar mental twist/blank spots. If you dont realize you the problem and take action, this sought of incidence keep happening. The mind either tricks us into taking a drink or just doesnt even allow us to think, we just act and pick up. The first step in the recovery process is to realise we have a problem and then act on it. Periodic inventory of ourselves helps. Its like a business taking inventory of goods that sells and that dont. So we can culture positive nature of ourselves.

[Elemis in reply to SoberDrunk1]

Thank you.. absolutely spot on.

[Jampacked]

Well done for getting back on track and beating that BD. It's horrible when you get those cravings that strike suddenly. I dread it. So glad you managed to get things back on track. I totally agree a wobble is not the end of the world you live and learn.

[Elemis]

Thank you for the positive feedback. I now confront my behaviour and express how i feel to my daughter and husband who remain supportive despite witnessing some really poor behaviour in the past. I have now resumed listening to TED talks and AA groups to reaffirm why i started the AF journey. This forum also helps immensely.

[SoberDrunk1 in reply to Elemis]

Its to peculiar disease. Everybody sees we have a problem, but we dont think so. Few months before I realized I have a problem, my wife took me to a family counselor, that didnt' help. It was when I realized I realy need to quit drinking is when all options opened up. I was led to a shrink who suggested that I seek a spiritual solution and he suggested I attend a few AA meetings. I had no idea what alcoholism meant. Later when I read the big book, it all made sense. I share this in meetings, if one is serious about recovery and runs into the book Alcoholics Anonymous, he cannot fool himself that he is not. There is so much in-depth experiences documented in the book that we cannot deny that we are one them. Even though the book was written 80 odd years ago, alcoholics havent changed much. Maybe alcohol comes in new bottles/flavors but human beings havent changed much.