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[Madigansmom]

I went to an AA meeting tonight for the first time. It does not surprise me that I have taken this step. Throughout my life, I have engaged in social and binge drinking. I seem to take control and stop for extended periods of time. I also convince myself that I can have 1 drink and be "fine.". The difference for me is that 1 slips into 2... And the point of no return is all too familiar. I identified with the shared stories of others at the meeting. I was surprised but not surprised to hear others had similar experiences to my own. I am sad to disconnect from my favorite drinks. I am content, for now, that I can stay away from alcohol. But I also worry how this will change my social lifestyle. It's for the best, I know. Just a hard step to close that door altogether. Thx for listening. I'm sure I'll have many more posts and struggles along with the positives. 🙂. Peace.

[SoberDrunk1]

Welcome to the forum. And really happy to know that you already visited an AA meeting. I sobered up using the 12 steps AA and very much involved in meetings and other service aspect of the fellowship. Initially it will be overwhelming to get adjusted with situations where drinking is involved. But once you realize its our mind that makes us drink and start working the 12 steps of AA, we will start experiencing the promises. I love the 10 step promise where it says, we will be placed in a position of neutrality even when it comes to booze. It comes naturally as long as we keep oursleves in fit spiritual condition.

BTW if you are looking for material around step1, I have gathered some key points from the big book and documented them on google docs, you may find them at: tinyurl.com/firststepAA

[Madigansmom in reply to SoberDrunk1]

THANK YOU for the supportive words and suggestions. I will certainly review the Step 1 doc you shared. What an amazing fellowship in AA. I will rely on the supportive groups as I overcome on the challenges ahead. I love the concept of "developing neutrality" in regard to all things including the beast of booze. Thank you so much for the supportive words and the Step 1 resources. 🙂

[Jampacked]

Welcome. Great to have you on board.

[Hidden]

Welcome! Just take it one day at a time and you got this!

[MidnightRain-]

I’m at a similar stage to you right now, and I feel the same. Even though I knew I had to, and deep down wanted to, stop drinking… all I kept thinking about was “Will I be able to sit around people while they’re drinking this summer?” It’s the strength I’m going to need that scares me, as opposed to the easy route of just getting drunk and caring less.

But well done, you are on the right path! You should be proud of yourself. Even thus far.