Just got diagnosed, glad to find this site. I'm not that freaked out but not sure. The word cancer is frightening, lost a lot of family to it. BUT, I am 78 years old and have had a great creative interesting life. So okay waiting for the shoe to drop, in truth this one, cll, doesn't sound that bad, confusing but not bad. Ultimately we all die of something as does every living thing on this earth. I feel the biggest killer and destroyer is fear along with loneliness. So I will try to continue to be creative and live my life, do my work, do the things I love, follow the muse and not be a slave doctors.
This is the WW time as it all is, anything can happen at any time. I'm not the most positive guy, just think about all the beauty in this world. It is all temporary with or without cll. Pick up a leaf or a stone and really see it, that is pretty good and magical.
Much love and caring, Stephen