You may recall when I wrote about the terrible time I had before I received the news that I had cancer in the colon and the liver,well on thursday 12th november I had a 45 minute scan on my liver.So now we wait to see what the results are,to say I am frightened is an understatement but wait we must.My family are putting a brave face on the whole situation.It did not help when I watched a tv programme about Frank Gardner who now has a stoma and an old episode of Spooks where this guy alledgley committed suicide because he had cancer of the liver and he maintained that he could not face the prospect of a painful death.Not the type of tv to watch.I am afraid of dieing,of leaving my family and very resentful that I have not done a fraction of what some people get up to and continue to enjoy their lives.I must leave now as I am starting to cry,if you pray to whomever please please ask them to give me the resolve to go on.Thank you for reading this and I will let you know whatever the outcome is..........THANK YOU!
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Hello, cancer is very frightening but I am hoping and praying that you receive the very best treatment which will enable you to go on.
My brother in law had colon cancer around 15 years ago. He has a bag and copes very well. Don’t give up as treatments are improving all the time. Thinking of you. Xxxx
Hi tobby1428,
Yes, that's terrifying news and of course you are really worried and wondering what the future holds. I do remember your previous post about your condition and I really feel for you.
I saw the Frank Gardner programme too, and of the two programmes you say you saw which referenced this, I'd say his is the one to focus on. The man is a marvel! Struck down in the prime of life, he's rebuilt it in a new way and triumphed over all his adversity. At one time he didn't think he would pull through, but look at him now! He shared with us that he still struggles with the way in which his life changed, but he still overcomes it all and pushes on regardless.
We can't all be Frank Gardners but I'm hoping that you too will be able to be brave enough to face a new way of life.
The thing is that there are so many people out in the world dealing with stoma as their new reality, and we often have no idea. Sometimes I think that the fear is harsher than the reality.
I wish you strength to face this and I hope that, like the people I do know who are living with this condition, you will find that the reality isn't as scary as the expectation.
I can see that you are still suffering some dark thoughts and depression and I urge you to share those thoughts and feelings with others. When we open up and talk, we usually find that our families are even more supportive than we first thought. They are probably more terrified by the thought that they could lose you, than you are of losing them. If you find you can't open up to your family, then please find someone else who can understand the terrible time you are going through.
If you don't already have contact with MacMillan macmillan.org.uk/cancer-inf..., I'd urge you to do that right away. The organisation is really overstretched, but no-one is turned away and they have all sorts of resources they can suggest to help you through.
Thinking of you, and yes, please do keep us updated on what's happening with you, because I'm quite sure that many of us, including me, are thinking of you and wishing you well. Take care and stay brave. 🙏
A very kind and thoughtful reply Callendersgal. You’re an asset to the Care Community. Take care xxx🥰🙏🏻
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