Hi guys I’m writing this in need of a bit of guidance and advice.
When my tinnitus first started due to loud music and machine use at work (gardening) it was absolutely horrendous. The volume was incredible, left ear buzzing, unable to think or read and when people spoke to me it was hard to even hear what they were saying. I tried everything, acupuncture, supplements, hypnotherapy, diet changes and nothing worked. This went on for months and months.
The main problem was sleep as I was getting about 2 hours a night, every time I laid down to relax I experienced terrible anxiety which made me sit bolt upright in bed. The tinnitus was so loud it was impossible to sleep. I continued to work but without using any machinery, I had to reduce my hours as I simply couldn’t work on such little sleep and was losing my mind.
In my desperation I purchased diazepam after my doctor prescribed me 5mg for 7 days and it ran out, I started taking 20mg to get 3 or 4 hours sleep instead of 1 or 2 hours.
Suicidal thoughts and urges became so strong my doctor told me to discontinue as I was a cannabis user as well and he told me the diazepam combined was causing these urges.
Now after stopping the diazepam and cannabis completely my GP has prescribed me Mirtazapine 30mg antidepressant every night and Zopiclone 7.5mg to help me sleep. After going 5 months running on 2 hours sleep a night I’m finally getting 6 or 7 hours but always broken sleep and have been experiencing terrible nightmares since starting the Zopiclone.
The tinnitus has drastically reduced since starting the sleeping pills (Zopiclone) and I use the Sound Oasis sound therapy device when I sleep, so I think it is training my brain as I sleep to ignore or dull the tinnitus.
I’ve experienced all manner of things with my hearing recently; both ears popping and crackling, hearing changing when I swallow like becoming clearer, slight pain in both ears, both ears feeling warm, also the ‘dog whistle’ tinnitus in both ears lasting not long but completely different from the low frequency buzz of my tinnitus in left ear on first onset.
I’m incredibly anxious all the time, I don’t want to be on antidepressants and sleeping pills for the rest of my life as I feel like I’m not myself; I don’t feel like ‘the old me’ even though my tinnitus has got better since getting sleep. I’ve accepted the condition and stopped beating myself up so much for listening to music so loud but I’ve changed so much it’s putting a massive strain on my relationship with my girlfriend.
Does anyone think it’s a good idea to start tapering the Zopiclone and antidepressants down so I can come off them completely? My GP said he will start prescribing lesser amounts so I will eventually come off them but when I have vivid, violent nightmares every night and during the day I’m feeling irritable, drowsy and not myself I really want to stop this medication. I’m also scared to go back to the days of literally no sleep and trying to hold down a job and keep my girlfriend too!
I just feel so lost as to what to do...