Your posts are a great comfort

[Charlieathome]

I thank each and everyone one of you,I will read them all. My first day without him, just feeling numb and empty, when he passed yesterday I felt a part of me went with him. 🌻

[Millie09]

Hello Charlie, What you are feeling and going through is absolutely normal, I was the same when my dad passed away, ..I did not know what to do or who to turn to ,I felt very alone ..

May I ask, do you have any family near you ? .

Take things an hour at a time , it will get easier ..

Thinking of you Charlie..

God bless.. Linda x

[Charlieathome in reply to Millie09]

Hi Linda, no there was just me and him. Anthony had some lovely people caring for and the have now adopted me so I have people to go to..I would be lost with out them.I have had so many beautiful posts of support on here I am so grateful..thank you 🌻

[Millie09 in reply to Charlieathome]

Hi Charlie I'm.so happy that you have the "adopted " friends that Anthony had made , i find it can help ease the pain of grief somehow when able to share how you ate feeling,

This forum has been a mass of support in many ways to me also.

Please take care

Linda x

[Littleperson999]

I’m so so sorry for your loss. This is heartbreaking to read. I lost my mum three years ago and I know how lonely and shocked you must feel. I hope you have someone to talk to? When she first passed, I used to tell everyone and anyone who wanted to listen - coffee shops baristas, dry cleaners, grocery store. Somehow everyone’s kind (even complete strangers) words and empathy helped to get through the day 🙏🏽

[Charlieathome in reply to Littleperson999]

Thank you for your kind words. It is strange tho as I lost my mum on the 9th April 2010 I know she would be waiting for him..🌻

[Mango5cm]

Lovely words from Littleperson - when I lost my mum then my husband I wanted to talk about them to keep their memory alive and to give me some comfort . grief doesn’t go away it just becomes different and in time easier to manage . Just do what feels right for you - I found counselling with cruise helped me . I do hope you have some good friends nearby to support you .if it helps please post on her as well and we’ll be there for you ready to listen and care . Sending you a big hug Carol xx

[Charlieathome in reply to Mango5cm]

I will post after he has been laid to rest, that will finish our journey...🌻

[Honey1978]

so sorry to hear about your loss 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[Rshc]

so much of our happiness is wrapped up in our children, it doesn’t matter if it’s your toddler or your adult child. You feel every emotion and pain they go through as though it is your own. You took such good care of him, I am sure every day he was grateful to be wrapped up in your love x

[Whitethorn]

I know your pain x we are coming up to a year now and it still seems like a few weeks ago xx may he rip xx

[FarahS]

Hi Charlieathome - I am so very sorry for your loss. I have read your posts and I’m absolutely heart broken. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. As everyone has been saying, it really is just one small step at a time. One foot after the other. Your son is no longer in pain now at least….my thoughts are with you.

[Aotea2012]

I’m so sorry to read this. Try to take one day at a time. There will be good days and bad ahead of you, but keep moving forward and one day you’ll realise that you feel ok. There will still be pain but this tremendous overwhelming feeling that you have now will have gone. You will start to remember the nice parts of his life and the terrible end will have faded into the past.

[Braveheart65]

I am so very very sorry to hear such sad news. My thoughts are with you, please keep in touch, let’s us know how you are. My heart goes out to you.

[Robert1220]

I lost my husband 10 years ago through lung cancer although he was a non smoker. It was 18 months from diagnosis before he passed away. It was and still is a very sad time for everyone So I feel your pain. It takes a long time to accept and I cried a sea of tears. But please be assured that one day and that day is a long way off for you yet that you will look back and smile. The dark days of his illness will fade but his beautiful memories will shine forever x

[Dogbot]

💕💕

[Livmar]

Truly and sincerely my most deepest sympathy. Sending you all the strength, Love and light to help you in this most difficult time. Millions of virtual hugs ❤️

[Charlieathome]

Thank you for your beautiful post. I'm in floods of tears reading your words...its good to cry thank you again. 🌻

[Dobielove]

Hi Charlie

Sorry for your devastating Lost, Everyone’s grief journey is different and there is no right or wrong way to deal with your grief it’s your grief and you take your time how ever long it takes, as long as you remembered him he’ll always live on in your heart you will always feel the lost if you ever what to talk you can private message anytime my I totally understand want you are going through, I lost my Kid Brother to suicide last February and I have an a hard time coming to terms with it still am, made worst by his wife but that’s another story! My Mam and Dad both had grief counselling but it wasn’t for me maybe that’s something to look into? So Very Sorry you take Care here if you wanted to talk ❤️😘xxx

[Charlieathome in reply to Dobielove]

I am so sorry to hear about your kid brother that must have been a terrible shock. I am not into counselling, what I am doing is writing down my feelings in our diary, I used to keep track of Anthony's appointments etc..so I will continue and hopefully one day to read it all ..Look after yourself..x 🌻

[Dobielove in reply to Charlieathome]

Yeah it was he's was having a lot mental health problems after he Married which we where not informed about We only found out about his death 3 days after the fact through the rumour mill at his work, I have a plant pot in my garden with forget me not in it that my Brother gave me from his garden and when I feel low, I go garden and sit and remember the good time, as we have no grave that we can. The last cruel thing she did was not allow anyone to the funeral, I found out from funeral director that one was attend his funeral.

Like I said I didn't have any couselling it's not right for everyone but as long as you get your Feeling out in, the diary as I good way and Talking to Family and friends and this website we're all here to support and help you, just don’t bottle up your feelings You take Care of yourself Lovely ❤️😘xxxxx

[Readlots]

Hi Charlie, When my Dad died the post man, of all the bizarre connections you make in these strange times, told my Mum some advice that he’d been given when his wife died: ‘whenever anyone invites you to do anything, say yes. You might not feel like it but do it anyway’. My Mum took his advice and it really helped her so I’m passing it on to you.

I also think you’re right. He’s still with you and always will be. Lots of people talk to loved ones who have died, and that’s OK - whatever helps you on this roller coaster of emotion.

Sending s big hug xxx

[Charlieathome in reply to Readlots]

Thank you..x 🌻

[VeeWat]

I’m so sorry for your loss. We lost our daughter 8 months ago and are just now slowly coming out of the tremendous fog of grief.

[Charlieathome in reply to VeeWat]

I am so sorry to read about your loss, I think fog is an appropriate word. I lost my brother in 99 and my mum in 2009 , this is something totally different .. thank you for taking time to reply..🌻

[VeeWat in reply to Charlieathome]

same here. Brother passed and both parents.

Entirely different grief with a child. Entirely different.

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Hang in there. Everyone who reads your posts are sending you their love.

[Charlieathome]

I cannot thank you all enough, all your words are giving me comfort.. It will make him happy to see that there are so many caring people. 🌻