Just don’t feel the same since I was 13

[Justme1989]

Something doesn’t seem right .... I haven’t felt my self in ages ( about 16 years ) I’m now 30 , my sense of smell has been dramatically decreased , I assume that’s from smoking , I go day in day out feeling like a robot ( even though I meet different people every day and do different tasks being a boiler engineer ) I’ve become VERY self centered and selfish since then , drinking does help and is now consuming me because it seems to help for a short time .. I have moments where I cant concentrate and end up having a panic attack it feels like I have no where to go ... I also feel I am isolated most of the time , like clostraphobic , being out in the open makes it worse I usually try and drive to a customers place as quick as I can as being in a house makes me feel alright . When I work or am concentrating on something it’s like it goes by too quick and I can’t remember sometimes what I’ve done ? I’ve got 2 kids , one 9 and one 1 year ,,, the eldest I can’t remember the birth , I’m always forget full , I know I can’t get any answers off here and every one will say see a doctor . I’ve posted this just to see if there is any one out there that feels the same ? Thanks for reading guys

[jojokarak]

I think we have all felt like that at some point in our lives, but for yours to seem like it's felt like this for so long is worrying and especially if your saying booze helps to make you feel better...

Have you spoken to anyone in your life about this family, friends or a doctor?

Because as you say that's all we can recommend and it will help x

[Justme1989 in reply to jojokarak]

Only spoke to family about it , spoke to a doctor years ago about it , was put on some sort of tablet ( sorry can’t remember the name ) made me worse , when my minds off of it e.g gaming I’m fine but the minute real life kicks in I get this horrible feeling x

[jojokarak in reply to Justme1989]

Me personally I think you need to speak to a psychologist... They are amazing I was in a bad way about 18 months ago and I was referred by my gp no medication was involved they just helped me see things in a different light, don't get me wrong I still have bad days but I cope now... Medicine isn't for everyone can have a negative effect but the alcohol is bad you don't want to have to deal with the consequences of self medicating with that for too long x

[Justme1989 in reply to jojokarak]

Yeah I see what you mean , I have been self medicating with alcohol since I was 16 so scared to go to see a doc about that also

[Popel in reply to Justme1989]

Not sure about physically feeling your liver but with me and a lot with cirrhosis sufferers it’s the spleen on your left hand side that will become enlarged first and doctors can feel by putting slight pressure on your stomach

[Hidden in reply to Popel]

Yeah, my spleen is enlarged. Why does that happen with cirrhosis

[Justme1989]

By the way is it normal to feel your liver when led down and take a deep breath whilst hand is pressing under right rib cage ?

[Popel]

Hi there . Sorry your feeling low. But you’ve got to look on the positives in your life and just from reading your post I can see them .your in the prime of your life my friend at thirty you have two no doubt beautiful small children who rely and look up to you.you work you have a relationship I’m guessing who supports you I’m also guessing you have a family around you that love you and as tough as it now you’ll look back at this time as pivotal.your on a liver forum and obviously recognise that your drinking too much and it means you’ve got good intuition as you know we’re this could lead.ive been in your position but had no job, four young children.homeless and drinking daily and knew deep down what it was doing to me.which ultimately resulted in a liver transplant six month ago at fifty but I’m still here and now love life you just need to dig deep and I’m sure this will pass.but stopping drinking will go along way in helping you and wish I’d of had this forum when I was your age because maybe things might of turned out differently but who knows. I wish you well all the same.paul

[Popel in reply to Popel]

Just something else to add that there won’t be one person on here who feels the same now as an adult than they did as a thirteen year old boy or girl nether mind having the same tastes or smells.it’s all part of becoming an adult. My smells and especially tastes are still changing at fifty.and it’d be strange if you did feel the same to be honest.

[kurtymac]

Sounds like a very bad case of depression. Many feel this way, I know I do. However, you have to stop drinking so much for the same of your health and liver. Life can get much worse when you're drinking for comfort. I know most people dont want to hear this but it's a road to destruction. Try to see if you can get on some psych meds at least those dont ruin your liver until you start feeling better. I'm speaking through experience. I'd push for a fibroscan to see where your liver is at. Drinking since 16 could be causing some serious damage. Best to get that and some blood panels. Dont be afraid, you cant get worse from here as long as you start taking care of yourself. Many times alcohol will make you feel more like crap and put you under more stress. Although it seems like it's helping.

[Laura009]

Hi.

It does sound as though you are suffering from depression which won't be helped by your years of drinking. For your physical and mental health, the drinking needs to stop before it drags you down any further. It is a poison and a depressant. I suggest you see your Dr asap, be honest about your alcohol intake because you must not be prescribed antidepressants while you are still drinking, this lethal cocktail will play havoc with you mentally. Ask for assistance ie councelling, with kicking the booze and tests for any liver damage. Gradually over time you will emerge from the heavy dark cloud you feel you are trapped inside.

Please dont be affraid, you've made the first steps in recovery so now by sharing your problems with the doctor and showing you want to recover, you will get the help you obviously need.

Take care and good luck

Laura

[davianne]

Hi Justme, you've had some great advice already, and I agree with all that has been said. Alcohol is, after a short high, a depressant. I have been where you are now with depression. You should stop drinking ( it's a poison) , then go and see your GP, and tell him truthfully about your drinking and your depression and feelings about your anxiety, and ask for a referral to a psychologist, and also a blood test and ultrasound, to check on any damage to your liver. I wish I had been given this advice years ago, my liver would not be as it is now. At 30 years old,and with the right action, your liver can recover. You have a young family, and with care, can enjoy them as you should.

Take care,

David

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Regarding your loss of sense of smell, this might be helpful: healthline.com/symptom/loss...

[Justme1989]

Thanks for all of the advice people . Very much appreciated , I honestly did not know that alcohol is a depressant . But yes it does help when I drink but makes it so much worse when I wake up . I do like drinking don’t get me wrong but I think for the sake of my self and family in just going to have to bite the bullet and give it all up

[Laura009]

Great decision , your life will be so much happier and healthier. Any problems you may think you have can be tackled with a clear head and won't seem half as bad.

I would hate to see another family destroyed by alcohol abuse. My children were 11 and 17 when we lost their Father 9 years ago he was only 54 and he has missed out on seeing them grow and tun into the woderful adults they are today. He would have been extremely proud of them.

Laura x

[Justme1989 in reply to Laura009]

Thanks Laura really sorry to hear about your husband though

X

[Laura009 in reply to Justme1989]

Thankyou. Life is all very good now. But it helps to make people realise just how dangerous alcohol is

Xx

[Justme1989 in reply to Laura009]

Yeah if I’m honest I didn’t really know just what effects it has on you and how harmful alcohol is .over the past few days I’ve literally been glued on google searching . Probs not the best thing to do lol Xx

[Laura009 in reply to Justme1989]

Haha no not really, the people here who have had bad experiences with it are the best people to take advice from. Thankyou for acting upon the advice.

All the best x

[Hidden]

Good afternoon,

You have had lots of good advice from your fellow forum users and the fact that you recognise alcohol is a problem for you is big step - well done. Please seek advice and support with stopping alcohol. If you have been drinking a lot and try to detox on your own, without medical supervision and assistance, it can be very unsafe.

regards