I haven't posted anything for a while but this week has thrown up a lot of feelings I've been pushing down.
I have been offered/put forward to trial the new liver cleaning machine (OrganOx metra).
They take a liver that would normally be discarded,clean it until it can be transplanted into a person who would have trouble getting one.
This is great news for me or anybody like me but I am so scared in case it all goes wrong. I know there's always that chance but this time the fear has hit me like a bag of bricks.