Last Chemo yesterday !!!!

[jackearls1000]

well the day came and went ..my last treatment ...I was very surprised how emotional I was ...I thought id be all smiles and tribulations ..but I wasn't ...the poor nurse had to try and get the needle in my hand and couldn't so after phoning the Dr they all decided to try the other hand ...which meant waiting for over an hour ..wed already waited an hour over appointment time ...still it has been done and out the way now ..I took my cold cap off with tears ...and I felt sick ...so now I'm home, had a shower and feel a bit more human ...so time to recuperate ...ready form my setup appointment for CT scan for radiotherapy ....to anyone starting off ....don't be frightened ..( I was massively terrified ) but you do get through and have a smile along the way ....thank you to everyone for your massive support ...ive come along way since the start of this journey ...and ive learnt a lot about myself to ...lots of love and healing to you all Jane xxxx

[Lainey66]

Well done Jane. Yes isnt it strange how we dont feel lime cartwheeling out of there. I thi k it is because we grow so used to jhaving the nurses there as our 'safety net' so to speak. All the best with the radiotherapy - nearly all done now xxxx

[jackearls1000 in reply to Lainey66]

Thank you Lainey ..for being there for us all ..you have been with me through my journey right from the beginning . I do realise I have been quite lucky thus far ..being at the hospital has humbled me so very much. But also frightened me a little ...I have learnt a lot about friendships and life in general ...even strengthened my relationship with my daughter, taught me that its silly to argue over things so trivial ..if she doesn't want to wash / teeth/ tidy her own room ...well that's fine ..she does it in the end without me getting so stressed ....my life thus far hasn't been easy ...but boy it will be easier now ....take care and keep in touch ....I hope all is well with you Lainey and your enjoy life to the max ....lots of love Jane xxxx

[jackearls1000 in reply to jackearls1000]

Ps ..I WILL DO A CARTWHEEL AFTER THE LAST STEP ...FOR SURE ....BIT SQUIFFY NOW LOL XXXX

[Lainey66 in reply to jackearls1000]

I hear you Jane. One if my first lessons was that of friendships. It sorts out the friends alright. I too learned to destress and have grown much closer to my family. When dies radii start Jane? I will definitely keep in touch xxxx

[jackearls1000 in reply to Lainey66]

i have my set up CT scan on Tuesday that's just to put the markers in and set up position ...don't need any results as they took the cancer out before chemo .they were going to do it yesterday ..lol ..but no way was that ever going to happen .... just wondering how it happens ?? do they give you times and dates in advance?? I'm having 3 weeks .one a day ..with 3 extra blasts at the end ...xxx

[jackearls1000 in reply to jackearls1000]

I want to go away for a long weekend 16th March so I pray it will be over then ..want to book hotel a.s.a.p. hope they tell me tuesday xx

[Lainey66 in reply to jackearls1000]

When you go in tell them that you are going away. Thats what I did and they worked around that. I had 5 weeks 1 a day. They will do the scan and here they put littlt tiny tattoo dots on you. One either side and one centre on your chest. These are done as they will ensure you are lined up correctly on the machine. This is in order that there is no movement at all and no ir minimal damage can be caused to organs etc. They dont hurt much at all, the tiniest of pinpricks. I recommend than you get e45 unperfumed (red lid) moisturise the night before with it and make sure you shower it off properly the morning of the radiotherapy. Do this each time. It will help reduce the level of burning on your skin. xx

[lynnedpope66]

Well done Jane! It doesn’t seem that long since I was saying this all to u and now here u r having finished your chemo! I have been and had my hair cut and coloured today so saying goodbye to my wig after 9 months! Have also had an appt for my first mammogram on Feb 1st so just need to get through that hurdle now! Hope you are feeling ok and radiotherapy goes well. Take care. Lynne. Xxx

[jackearls1000 in reply to lynnedpope66]

oh best of luck for the 1st feb ..I'm sure all will be fine ..wow well done with the wig removing ..is that 9 months since the end chemo or all In together? I have some hair left ..lost about 75 percent .in total ..so I cant wait to be able to throw off the wig .Lots of love Jane x

[lynnedpope66 in reply to jackearls1000]

Started wearing my wig in April had last chemo on July 5th so 6 months since the end of chemo. Xxx

[jackearls1000]

oh blimey ..so I have a while to go yet them x

[lynnedpope66 in reply to jackearls1000]

Yes, but everyone is different, your hair might be in a better state than mine was! Good luck! Keep in touch! Xx

[carolinenailsea]

Fabulous, at the start it feels like you'll never get through it and as though it goes on forever, then hey presto its done. For me the chemo was the worst bit and everything else was a breeze in comparision. I hope your radio goes well and before you know it you will be posting that the whole thing is behind you and committed to history. Good luck. Caroline xxx

[Donnanh]

Well done Jane!! I had my last cycle on Wednesday just a couple of days before you I also did the cold cap thing and so pleased I stuck with it.

I got quite emotional today thinking I won’t gave to go back in three weeks for them to try and get a cannula in again. I think it’s going to be a lot of up and down in the next few weeks, but this dreaded part is done now, all the best to u Jane xx

[jackearls1000 in reply to Donnanh]

Morning Donnanh ...I hope your recovering well .I have done nothing but cry ...silly me ...I think I have been behaving "normal" through Christmas ect ..so as not to be a downer ..all that emotion is releasing with a vengeance ...feeling not to bad this morning ..last day on tablets ...then I will feel a bit better I think ...I have my CT scan tomorrow which I'm a bit fed up about but I spose It will be another step closer towards the very end ...whats your next step? ..wishing you a Happy day ..lots of love Jane xxx

[Donnanh in reply to jackearls1000]

Hi Jane

Hope your scan goes really well tomorrow, I have radiotherapy next but don’t have my appt till the end of the month so next few weeks will just focus on getting stronger and not picking up a bug! Are you planning any holidays after treatment? I am really looking forward to some sun!

Take care and again all goes well tomorrow. Donna x

[jackearls1000 in reply to Donnanh]

Hello ....yes I really am fedup I have to go back to hospital today ..they cold have let me recovered a bit ....they wanted me to have the scan the same day as my chemo last Friday ....a bit of time would have been nice ...still ,,,yes we are planning a holiday ....I am pondering on going to a music festival in March ..but I am a bit worried going with a wig on to be honest ..loads of people I know will be there and I haven't told many but some will know ...but my husband turned 50 last week so we are in the process of booking a south African safari ..in August ...again I'm a bit worried ...its not my choice of country ..I worry about safety as out daughter will be going to ....I am turning into a worry dolly since all this ...I use to be a free spirit ...but I think my spirit is a bit crushed at the mo ....I just think maybe I need a bit of time ...lots of love Jane xxx

[Donnanh in reply to jackearls1000]

There’s going to be lots of highs and lows for us, we’ve been through a lot and still have treatment, I’d say if you’re really not happy don’t make yourself do it, or you may just be a bit fed up at the moment with the scan and things, don’t push yourself right now, take care we’re going to be ok xxxx

[jackearls1000 in reply to Donnanh]

yes I think I'm a bit " sore " at the moment ...scan all done ..was ok ..I just hate going to the hospital ..time is a great healer ...this is the last stage ...I should be relieved ...theatre sat with my daughter ...that should cheer me up lol xxxx

[Donnanh in reply to jackearls1000]

👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽 for scan, enjoy your evening 😊xxx

[jackearls1000 in reply to Donnanh]

Morning Donnanh ....how are you doing ?? xxx

[Donnanh in reply to jackearls1000]

Hi Jane

I’m doing ok thank you, my eyes are constantly watering and the skin under my eyes looks like a lizard but I’m ok. I did have to stay a couple of nights in hospital last week as I was neutropenic, not nice but I’m much better and feeling stronger every day, my taste is coming back so that’s nice 😊, how are you doing? xx

[jackearls1000 in reply to Donnanh]

I'm OK ...banging headache today ....but I'm sort of worried about it coming back ....why?? ive done everything so far to make sure it doesn't ...I spose its early days ??? I'm glad your feeling better, my taste is getting better too ..I'm not sure how I'm spose to feel to be honest ...does that sound stupid? I don't need to take any hormones ...and I feel a bit insecure about this x

[Donnanh in reply to jackearls1000]

Hi Jane

I’m sure it’s normal to feel scared in the beginning, i look forward to the day when it’s not the first thing I think about when I wake up! I’m going on a “positive moving forward” course next week, it’s a six week course organised by the cancer support centre, do you have something similar in your area for end of treatment? xx

[jackearls1000 in reply to Donnanh]

I don't know ...no,one has said anything ...maybe they will when I go for radiotherapy x

[Donnanh in reply to jackearls1000]

Breast cancer care do a 4 week course that’s similar called Moving Forward,they have it all over the U.K. xx

[jackearls1000 in reply to Donnanh]

Ok thank you..ill look into it ...have a nice evening x

[Donnanh in reply to jackearls1000]

Hi Jane

I went on a positive about life session today and was given a copy of an article by Dr Peter Harvey, it’s called “after the treatment finishes, then what?”, a few of the ladies in the group had read it and thought it was helpful, I agree, go to cancercounselling.org.uk and look under resources. Take care, Donna xx

[anne-57]

Congratulations to you! You are the other side of that "mountain". Enjoy the view! Xx

[jackearls1000 in reply to anne-57]

Thankyou ....I'm trying too ..xxx