on Tamoxifen now for a year and a half.. i am fighting the weight gain and winning very very slowly. when i told the breast care doctors about weight gain they nodded sadly and said yea... but hey, you beat this. weight gain is a small price... yea. it is a different emotion the weight gain, from the euphoria of being cancer free. its still depressing.. i had lost a massive amount of weight before i got sick and was so proud... then chemo/steroids, whooooomph... weight back on and so slow to shift it now.
i'm 50. i feel older, stiffer, blurred vision, attention problems, pain in my lower legs, feet and ankles. i cannot get up off my knees without making that loud ummmmphhhh noise that comes with old age. i walk 5 k at least 4 times a week, i keep my steps up to 8-12k per day, eat healthy, take lots of supplements, including devil's claw for joint pain. it takes me a good 10 minutes to get warmed up enough in the morning to walk without limping. I know, i know all the benefits outweigh the side effects... i think... do they though? can i do another 3.5 (and probably more, as my friend has been told after 5 years that another 5 would be a good idea). i feel my quality of life is far lower than i would have hoped for. is there NOTHING else can be done ? my doctor shrugged, my breast surgeon shrugged, and people in general are kind of saying suck it up buttercup you're one of the lucky ones....
needed to vent... thanks for listening.. dont mean to sound ungrateful. i'm so incredibly grateful to be 2 years past all of this, but on low days i find it all a little depressing to be so creaky and old. i'm not old.