So I just turned 18 back in September. Found out that my boyfriend of a year has cheated on me the whole time we were together (we have talked it out, and he's a recovering drug addict so things are complicated with that but that's not my concern right now) before I would've been ecstatic to be pregnant but I really need support from people who know how I'm feeling. I'm 9 weeks pregnant, and I've already thought about abortion but it's something I can't even fathom now because of how much I loved my boyfriend and I worry he won't be able to have any more children due to his drug abuse (dead sperm) but Im so scared that my life is over and I'm never going to be happy or normal. I guess it's cause I'm so young, and I do understand that I'm the one who laid down and had sex but I'm,just so scared I'm not going to be happy. I know this was all over the place but I just need some advice and no judgment because I don't know what to do.