I am so glad I have this site to vent on. I am now at week 10 of no smoking. I am using patches but as everyone knows who have used them, they don’t give you the fix like a cigarette did. I have 2 weeks left of these then that’s it, I’m on my own and not looking forward to that !!!
I can’t believe I am still having cravings although I can now enjoy wine again after posting on here a few weeks ago that I couldn’t so that’s one good thing and I am taking that as a positive that in only a few weeks this has changed.
After being diagnosed with vulvar cancer I know that I can never smoke again and I never will. I gave up right after my diagnosis which I do pat myself on the back about as it was one of the most stressful times in my life as didn’t know if it had spread etc but still didn’t smoke. The EXCELLENT news is that I got the all clear on 22 nd Dec after having major surgery in November to remove it.
Even though I know I can’t smoke again as this would increase my chances of this cancer returning it still hurts that I can’t smoke. I feel like a spoiled child thinking I want one !!
I can’t even get excited about booking this years holidays as the first thing that comes to my mind is it’s the first holiday I’ll go on as a non smoker so I won’t enjoy it ! Sad I know !
Sorry for the rant (again). I just hope that all this goes away soon and I can get on with living my life without constantly thinking about smoking and the relationship I USED to have with it
Thanks for being here 😀