What a year this has been. Considering that 13 is my lucky number!! I thought am I in denial? Always faced things faced on but struggling right now. To be honest, been struggling since first post and that's what makes me think am I getting it wrong. Diagnosed July 2013 with COPD after spirometry reading of 73%. In next few weeks had, they told me, chest infections and had antibiotics and prednisolone. Nurse had me back for another reading which said 69% but never explained to me that shouldn't have reading so close to an infection.
February - Chris taken suddenly into hospital and ended up having open heart surgery.
February - told MRI scan showed cancer in kidney
March - I had chest infection and fainted whilst coughing
and went to hospital and had blood tests and chest x ray and they came back ok.
Given prednisolone, antibiotics and inhaler. Never had inhaler in my life.
Ok after that and all well............. working etc.
June - couldn't breath. Went to GP and had spirometry. Reading of 73% and told had COPD. Given 2 inhalers, Qvar and ventolin and sent on my merry way.
2 days after that, my son told me him and his wife expecting their first baby. Wow I needed that as would be my first grandchild.
Trust me I have nagged my 3 kids saying when will I be a Grandma.
Chris had op eventually and no cancer. Thank you God. Spent 7 months thinking it was.
My son and his wife lost their baby. No words necessary
Chris always said to me, have they got it right? Denial maybe but breathing is pants. Despite all inhalers they through at me makes no difference. Chris came to GP with me other week and finally they will refer me to consultant.
GP seems to think I am hyperventilating. Could that give me a false spirometry reading?
My lovely daughter Natalie went on holiday Sunday and phoned me to say her boyfriend proposed, so lovely wedding to look forward to.
So why the hell do I feel depressed? Don't tell the kids that. Feel like I have been hit with so many things in so little time.
That does feel as if I am feeling sorry for myself. I'm not