Irrational fears

[Elliecabg2023]

Going through my diagnosis and subsequent 3 x Cabg last July, I find myself struggling with the way my body has left me down. I struggle with fears which are holding me back from making decisions to do nice things, I procrastinate, and in the end don't do them. I'm trying to book a holiday, but I can't do it, I'm worried about leaving home. I'm physically fit, clearly more than I was before the op., so it's illogical. Does anyone else feel like this, or has gone through it and come out the other end?

[Anginalady]

Hello, so sorry to hear that you're struggling with these fears so much that they stop you moving forward with your life. It's not something I've been through so I can't offer any life experiences for you, but it sounds as though you need to speak to your GP to get some support to help you through this.

As you say, physically you are fitter than you were before the op, are your fears that you may relapse in some way, is this why you can't face going away?

Maybe taking a holiday is too big a step for you right now. Are you managing smaller steps, like days out? Do you have a partner or a friend to talk to about how you're feeling? Sometimes talking through what's worrying you and listening to friends and loved ones advice, helps you to see things a little more clearly

Maybe you've tried these things and they've not helped, in which case you're GP is probably the next step.

As always, everyone here is here to listen when you need us, so please talk to us if you need to.

Let us know how you get on moving forward.

[Elliecabg2023 in reply to Anginalady]

Thank you for responding. I do get out, go to work etc., it's thankfully not crippling to that extent. It's hard to put into words really. I've talked to family, but they don't really understand what it's like to have the diagnosis and surgery that I've had. I think I was in shock and autopilot for so long, and I'm only now dealing with it.

[Anginalady in reply to Elliecabg2023]

I'm sure you'll get responses from others who've been through the same thing and will understand how you're feeling.

I think you've just explained it, you've been in shock and on autopilot and now you're dealing with it.

I won't say you need to think about the positives, as I'm sure you're aware of those, but contact you're GP and see someone who will understand what you're going through. Don't struggle through this alone.