Back story - May 2023 Suffered from Aortic Aneurysm, Hole in heart (since birth unknown prior), tear in left ventricle, thrombosis clot, failure of mitral valve . Suffered 4 cardiac arrests placed into an induced coma and transported to a Heart Institute where l had OHS. I have since had AF , heart burn, vocal palsy and Chronic pain disorder. These have left me barely able to function and severely debilitated. I have been awarded higher pip, ESA (still being assessed) obviously SSP ran out so l have applied for ill health pension from my employer of 29 years. Last Tuesday morning l had an email stating that my application for Incapacity Pension from my employer has been refused. I have had reports completed saying l can not work in business, hybrid etc in any capacity for the foreseeable future due to my disability. The email reasoning is there is a probability that l maybe able to work before 67 years old. To put you in the picture l am 49 and it has made me very stressed and low......bringing on chest pain and all the symptoms of another arrest. Ambulance called off back to hospital. Was asked if l have a respect form as my heart is badly damaged and as l have already had 4 cardiac arrests - have l considered a DNR? The hospital were fabulous and completed ECG twice as my results show AF and damage, X ray and blood tests showed it was my chronic pain not another cardiac arrest. Went home after having morphine. Two days later l have a call from the hospital asking how l am , to come back if the pain gets that bad again as chronic pain can be masking a CA.
Now totally in pieces...stress from work is making it so much worse, unable to financially afford to keep my house, bring up my 3 kids and not strong enough to fight for my pension. I am aware my heart is badly damaged and health is failing.
Finding it hard to find a way forward.
Sorry - l feel l am losing my way.