Hi all,
Had a pretty tricky last few months, was diagnosed with endocarditis at the start of November (had been feeling ill for a few weeks before), the infection responded well to IV antibiotics over a 6 week period so that was a positive.
However due to several other developments I also needed OHS towards end of December for a valve repair & to deal with an issue with my aortic root. Ended up spending just over 2 months in hospital overall.
Coming up to 6 weeks post surgery, I feel like I’m doing ok physically but just wanted a bit of a sanity check to see if I’m progressing well.
I’m driving, can walk maybe 3500 steps a day, doing some laptop work & light housework. I get tired each day but can’t sleep easily at all. In fact I’m writing this at 330am unable to sleep due to all the things going on in my head.
I have a million thoughts going around in my head whenever I try to sleep. Financial stuff, work stuff, excitement but impatience about getting back to a normal life, how my family felt while I was in hospital, just wanting to get my old life back really. I also have PTSD (GP has already said I have this) from what I’ve seen (and now can’t unsee) at hospital & definitely feel some survivor guilt as well.
Being able to switch off is just so difficult! I’ve tried zopiclone (prescription sleeping tablets) but it hasn’t worked for me very effectively at all.
Did anyone else have the same issues at this stage? And any general progress advice would be much appreciated.