Feeling anxious

[Grandboys]

Recovering from second MI 30th Oct .First one was 9 years ago , both caused by blood clot

Also now have inflammation /myocarditis ,can’t tolerate the colchicine treatment.

Have just had a reveal device fitted to monitor Rythmn

I have other chronic health conditions and chronic pain which affect my mobility

I had a cardiac MRI as an inpatient and was told results would be 2 weeks

That was 14th Nov

I’ve been chasing results but told earliest I can see cardiologist to discuss is 6th Feb

I have been left feeling vulnerable and scared and really anxious

I am SOB on exertion and only advice I was given was to rest and listen to my body

I don’t know what I should or should not be doing

I lost my mum quite suddenly in the summer , I looked after her at home for 2 weeks and she died at home with us

I am grieving and missing her so much but am trying to suppress my grieving as frightened to get upset incase it affects my heart

I’ve never felt so down and depressed in my life

I’m normally a fighter so just get on with things.

But I’m struggling to find joy in anything

[Blackcatsooty]

Dear Grandboys,

if your tests were seriously bad then cardiac dept would act fast, very fast, so maybe you might like to have that in mind.

I would think that suppressing your grief could possibly worsen your heart issues, but I don’t think that letting the grief run riot will harm your heart. So do try to do whatever you find appropriate to grieve for Mum.

Please accept my best wishes for you at this time of year

Sooty

[Grandboys in reply to Blackcatsooty]

thank you

[BeKind28-]

Hello

I understand the fear you are feeling maybe my heart condition was different to yours but the anxiety feels the same

I agree if anything needed dealing with asp they would have been back to you straight away so try and take that thought as a little reassuring

I think a big part that is adding to this is the loss of your Mum which I am so sorry and trying to hold back the grief when if you let it come it could help you to feel better it will be more painful and make you more anxious trying to suppress it allow yourself to grieve

You may feel so alone but you have this Community with people that will always listen to you so you are not alone

Please let us know how you get on x

[Fullofheart]

It sounds like you have a lot going on. Could you try and see your GP or maybe speak with the BHF nurses? It feels like some reassurance around the MRI might be useful. Take one worry out.It's a tricky time of year if you are feeling alone. I hope you feel you can reach out to people.

Very best wishes 🌸

[Sunnybamboo]

Have you tried cutting the colchicine in half and splitting the dose, also taking it after food?I'm so sorry for your loss.

I hope you have someone to talk to, Cruse Helpline is good and often local hospices have a grief line. Sue Ryder also have text support which you receive helpful little texts of support from time to time.

I wish you well

Take care.

[Grandboys in reply to Sunnybamboo]

Thank you

Re colchicine -when I told the hospital of the side effects they just said to stop completely

I didn’t consider splitting the dose , that may well have helped.

I am considering going privately to see a cardiologist once I have a copy of my MRI scan which I have requested , so I will mention that .

I have signed up to Sue Ryder and have some counselling booked in with the local hospice in January , I postponed it as I didnt feel able to cope with it sooner .

I’m hoping it will help me find some peace with it all.

Thanks again

[Sunnybamboo]

That all sounds like a good way forward, there's no right or wrongs is there, it's what you feel is right for you, whenever it's right for you. I wish you all the best and a peaceful New year