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Sometimes I Forget just how strong I am

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I don’t really post things like this. However after the stress and anxiety over the last few days I’v come to realise just quite how strong and accepting I have become. I won’t ever have children of my own or drive a car and work. However I have my amazing funny, gorgeous little niece that I will fight this Battle for. We all pick our own path in life. Although somebody else decided very shortly after I was conceived. That I was going to walk a very difficult challenging and really quite frightening path, but Despite it all the cardiac arrest, Brain damage and having to relearn everything I have done it. Yes there will still be days when I cry or get angry but I know that’s ok and it is also

ok to have those days where I crumble, because I pick myself back up and carry on. This next chapter in my life will by no means be an easy one. I will however get through it and there will be tears and lots of anxiety. But I know I will have an amazing team of people at Newcastle that will be with me every step of the way. So let’s do this. Let’s mend my broken💔heart💖💪

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Prada47 profile image
Prada47

Hello Buddy

We just have to play the hand we are dealt

From your previous posts your handling it pretty well, life's not fair to any of us we just have to deal with what we are dealt,

From your previous posts you have the support of your Mum and Dad which is so valuable in fact it's worth millions along the journey, which we are all plodding along. One thing to always remember is your never Alone.

vaccinated and plodding along.

in reply to Prada47

Yes we do. We can have ALL the help from the Medical Professionals which I have always found fantastic throughout the many years I have been back and fo Hospitals etc but having a 'Positive Outlook' goes a long, long, way and we have to help ourselves! 😀

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Pinky1985 in reply to Prada47

She’s an inspiration bless her so young and so brave

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Harmony123

Well said, Tori. Go for it... 😊💜

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valezio

My dear friend, I just want to say you are without doubt the bravest person I’ve ever known. Please be very proud of yourself. I love your positive attitude in this post, you are certainly an inspiration xxx I wish you hadn’t suffered so much but yes my darling you will get through this❤️.Look forward to lovely times with your Niece sweetheart. As you say, let’s fix your broken heart💔❤️❣️Meanwhile remember we are all thinking of you and here for you💕💕💕Sending you much love and gentle healing hugs xxxxxxxxx

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buddy2blue in reply to valezio

That’s lovey and really means a lot. So thank you so much xx 💖💖

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Sizzlerman in reply to valezio

Couldn't of said it better myself. Hear, hear

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Nettekin

A beautiful post which demonstrates a lovely soul. Heartfelt wishes (pun intended!) for the next stage of your incredible journey. X

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Theresa67

Go you xxxx

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stillaboveground

Tori you have just reduced me to tears. I have told you before you are the bravest person I have come across, your strength and willpower can't be beaten, unfortunately life dealt you a poor hand but you keep fighting back and keep coming through the other side. I think for every set back you experience it makes you stronger. Earlier this week you received hassle you could have done without, I sensed then you where at the end of you tether, but here you are as strong as ever. Take care my darling girl and look forward to easier times. Ruth xx

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meadfoot

Bless you being so strong in the midst of adversity, a lesson to us all. Stay strong, stay brave, you will prevail.

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nursenancy53

What a lovely strong positive post. Wishing you all the luck in the world, you deserve it ❤ xx

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080311

Morning Tori,

Reading your post as lifted my spirits this morning, you will meet your next challenge with the help of your parents and your medical team, come out the other side with a new heart and a zest for life.

As Para47 said we all have to deal with the hand we’re all dealt but with fortitude we get through.

Us Hearties here are with you and sending you as much strength as you need.

Best wishes Pauline

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MountainGoat52

What a lovely positive post Tori. You have gone through a lot, much more than many of us can imagine, and it very encouraging for us to read those words. Onwards and upwards as we say in the hill walking fraternity!

Best wishes,

Gerald

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Cat04

Your words have cheered me this morning, you have bounced back up again after the horrible couple of days you have had. I only have a 'minor inconvenience' to my heart in comparison to yours, yet you carry on with such strength and resilience I'm in awe of you. You have a steep journey before you and you will travel that journey step by step as you have done already, for yourself and for your lovely niece and family. Us on HU will all be with you 'virtually' and carrying you in our thoughts and love throughout.xxxxx

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Silvasava

Buddy, your words have given me a kick up the bum! Thank you. The issues I am dealing with pale in comparison to yours and I've felt like I've hit a brick wall at times and it's been difficult to stay positive. You've made me realise there is still so much to be thankful and joyful for. Sending you love and strength for the challenges you face 💟💟💟

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cowparsley

Darling Tori,you`re wonderful xxx

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Retirement65

Just wanted to add to what everyone has said buddy you are being so strong it’s a lesson to us all - they say the mind plays a massive part in our outcomes I truly believe this so onwards and upwards you have amazing support on this forum I wish you well take care 😘x

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Sunnie2day

Over the past 2+years I've read some outstanding posts from all the members but this latest one of yours is the best so far.

You go, Girl!

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Magicfairy

You are a special brave honest lady❤️, we are all with you, sending lots of love 💕 xx

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stagename

What an inspiring post as your strong spirit shines through. I know from many youngsters I have taught, who have had tough physical challenges, that they have a strong spirit of overcoming all the odds stacked against them. They brought a smile and a sheer willingness to have a try , that gladdened my heart, and taught their classmates such a lot about real strength of character. You are one such courageous young lady, an absolute winner. Some on here call you Tori, so that must be short for Victorious! And you certainly are. Perhaps you were named Victoria. Blessings and hugs.

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buddy2blue in reply to stagename

Yes Tori is shot for Victoria lol. I really appreciate your very kind post xxxx

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stagename in reply to buddy2blue

Bless you, x

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isobelhannah18

You are so cool! After all you've been through your attitude is amazing. I was feeling sorry for myself today for fairly trivial reasons but I am now counting my blessings. Thank-you.

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Handel

Wow Tori. What an inspiration you are to us all. Sending love and hugs. Jan xxx

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Astronomyrules

Dear Tori , as others have said you are truly amazing and an inspiration to us all. As you know there will be bad days; you wouldn't be human if you didn't have them, but you are so brave and have an inner strength that is enviable. You are a very special person and everyone here will be thinking of you on your journey to a new and functioning heart. Thank you so much for your post. Laurenx

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Educate

You are an inspiration to us all

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Pinky1985

You never fail to inspire me and so many others you’re a true heroine sweetheart how I pray for you I haven’t been online recently much for one reason or another but I thought of you so often

You face life so bravely and you deserve the best health you really do and treatment

You’re niece is so lucky to have such a beautiful, kind and strong auntie to love and look up to with also being an anchor to you on many occasions I’m sure

Take care always my prayers and thoughts with you xxx

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GrannyE

So sorry you are particularly down at the moment. Life is Unfair. That is just the way it is. Unfortunately heart conditions can make one anxious and this covid thing does not help one little bit. We all need something to look forward to. Can you not give yourself little treats every now and then? Do something nice and uplifting. Watch a video/film which makes you smile. Count your blessings. There must be some. Go outside when it is a bit cooler and look at the wonderful colours and the ever changing sky. Breathe deeply and know that you are not alone. There are many hands reaching out to you. Remember it is all right to look at the situation, accept it and have a good cry. This forum is such a good place to reach out to people who in general are very understanding, kind and helpful.

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