Giving Up

[Chaseinc]

This is Chase again, i cant deal with this Anxiety like this anymore i literally can only go outside is if im in a ambulance headed to a hospital for a Panic Attack , i had Asthma as a child and a PDA( Patent Ductus Arteriosis) at 4 months old i outgrowed asthma at 13 yrs old and since 18 yrs old my anxiety has cripled me almost i post on here alot and its getting to the point where its just too repetitive and embarrassing i cant get any help because im in the U.S with no insurance and its hard for me to go places because of Agoraphobia , every sensation i feel in my body i think its a heart attack or asthma attack but i never had neither im 22 years old and wasted the last 4 yrs to Anxiety no job , no school , no friends just me and anxiety i call the ambulance atleast 25 times a month its gotten to a point where they take a hr to get to my house but I cant blame them i cry wolf everyday and it scares me but how cant i when i feel every sensation and get worried about anything its so harddd im giving up i dont know what else to do or go

[Sasical]

Hi Chase

I know exactly where you're coming from and I'm sorry you are having such a bad time. I used to have agoraphobia, I don't any longer. I would recommmend that you read Claire Weekes, I would say that her books helped me as much if not more that therapy.

If you can't acces medical help my recommendation is exercise, Claire Weekes books and a free meditation app called Insight Timer. But it's true that you do have to work towards it. Without taking that first step nothing can change.

If I was able to do it I guarantee you can too.

Good luck and if you need to ask me anything go ahead

[lettingoffsteam]

OK, so you feel that you are going to have a heart attack but you are still well.Your anxiety is making your heart act up.I think you know this from your post.I am an anxiety sufferer as well and it has plagued me at various points of my life.Sasical is right about Claire Weekes, her books helped me too.Try to get hold of 'Self help for your nerves' which explains the symptoms of anxiety in such a reassuring way.

Try to avoid calling the ambulance...tell yourself that your mind is playing tricks on you and you are well.Try to do small tasks each day...just a little something.When you achieve what you set out to do tell yourself you have done well.

Most of all be kind to yourself.Don't beat yourself up about school, college, work etc.You can catch up when you are well.You are only 22, you have plenty of time.

Do you have family and friends?If so perhaps one of them will agree to accompany you when you go outside.Again small steps, not big journeys to start with.You will get there.Take care.

[IChoose]

No giving up allowed. You're not alone. We are here

[Love101cats]

I agree with the above comments but particularly the impact of being alone. I am but I dont feel lonely most of the time. Its the human voice I need so I contact people I used to see for a brief chat. Often they are in need too. I find that doing something for children of friends helps as they often send me little drawings and I can thank them for that. It soon grows to quite a circle of people who are quite happy to have contact little but often. Remember that there is more happiness in giving than there is in receiving and those who look like they have the perfect life haven't. Please try something.

[11walking22]

Sorry to hear about your anxiety I too suffer with it I recently had a stent put in my LAD I have suffered with anxiety and stress for many years and I believe has contributed to my recent health decline and lockdown hasn’t helped and all the worries that go with it I think every little twinge and ache is a problem I never noticed any of these problems before my Stent being put in so I sort of understand what you are going through If you can get your doctor to make an appointment with a self help group talking to someone who doesn’t judge you does help or your cardiologist if you can mine I’m lucky to say is very understanding I wish you luck and stay strong 💪