Thank you

[Harekatie]

Thank you to everybody who has replied to my previous post.

It is good to know that others feel like me even though I had thought I was the only one who could feel this ill. I’m interested to know how long it took people to feel normal again. I’m 12 weeks down the line and still feel very unsure of myself. Will I ever trust my body again? I don’t enjoy anything anymore because of my HA. I am on anti depressants and have been referred to a psychiatric to see if they can help with my mood. Just so scared that I will always feel like this. I spend hours crying wondering why at 48 I have been struck down like this. Sorry to sound so depressive but I feel like I am in a black hole.

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Nothing wrong with anything you feel - but there will be a time you will have to forget all the negatives - as you get your health back - which you will. I am 16 weeks down the line from a triple heart bypass after a minor (?) heart attack where a stent procedure left us all in amazement I had 95% blockage in two and a third totally blocked. My saviour was loosing 7 stone in weight the year before and having given up smoking 5 years before that. I have been given a second chance, a gift that few receive. MY wife could now have been a widow had it not been for the doctors and the whole hospital that looked after me so well. If I do not knuckle down and get on with my recuperation and do as I am told and exercise and eat properly - change my life - everything everyone has done for me will have been a waste of time. There is no time available to worry, you have to be strong and GRATEFUL you are not pushing up the daisies and will be able to wake up and see all the beautiful things in the world everyone in life takes for granted. I have seen more dragon flies round our local pond this year than I have ever done before - because I look and appreciate them. Do you have friends or family? Tell them exactly how you have felt and ask them to help you with your anxiety. Never give up, do not doubt your ability - this is but a small moment of time that will pass and even now, I cannot believe how much better I feel - still down moments but I do not dwell on them..........It is OK to look back but don't stare. Forever forward!

[Harekatie in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much. I hope I will in time be able to look forward. Glad you are doing so well x

[Nathan53]

I had 2 stents in April following a heart attack. Like many on here I had no idea I had developed a heart problem. I looked fit and felt reasonably fit apart from feeling very tired all the time which I put down to feeling stressed due to caring responsibilities and a busy life. After discharge from hospital I felt exhausted and aware of every twinge or pain. I had expected to feel well immediately like some people do. It took 3 months for me to start feeling more like my usual self. Remember you may not have stitches to indicate an operation but you have had a surgical procedure and trauma to your heart which takes time to regain strength. Stick with rehab and try not to compare yourself to others we all have differing conditions and recover at a different pace. If you are on the usual medication they can also effect how you feel. I was on 80mg atorvastatin which I realise is an accepted proven benefit to those who have had a heart attack. My GP agreed to reduce dose to 40mg and I feel much better - fewer stomach troubles and no aches or pains. Also beta blocker though necessary and effective can make you feel tired which your anti depressant may also do. It's a balancing act. You have done a very positive thing in arranging counselling but you could also discuss your medication combinations / doses with your GP. Hang in there no one can say when you will feel better but you will eventually. Thinking of you.

[Hidden in reply to Nathan53]

Nice post Nathan

[Nathan53 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks ticking-ticker there is so much positivity on this board that my day wouldn't be quite as rich without it. Reading what you have been through and your approach is an inspiration. Keep calm carry on and have fun.