The New Year is here but I start the year with my mind filled with worry and some fear 😱
I saw my surgeon on 20th Dec have had a few tests between Christmas and New Year.
I'm awaiting appointment for Surgical Pre-med assessment.
Then the date of my surgery.
The surgeon has said that my valve surgery is a little more difficult than normal. Plus during the tests they discovered a hole in my heart which they want to repair at same time.
I am at the moment not to bad. But I am worried sick and dreading the date for my op.
Im worried 😯 about complications or what can go wrong.
I'm getting really anxious and feeling depressed about it all.
Wondering why me! it's all one of my worst fears.
I know my heart is broken and know something is wrong with it.
I know need the surgery even though I am well at the moment.
Otherwise I could end up with severe heart failure and life will be shortened.
Is there anyone who feels the same?
I am scared