Thank you for the birthday wishes. It is very hard. Since my brain is all muddled right now, I'm not sure if this is the 2nd or 3rd birthday without her. It doesn't matter, though. This birthday seems to be hitting me extra hard. I think it might be because I was so focused on my trauma the other times that I didn't have the space to think about anything else. Now that I'm shifting focus back to her (I never thought "it's about time" would be words I'd have to use for grieving...), I think it's really hitting me hard.
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hello norw my dear friend im glad ive seen this i didnt know it was your birthday and can only imagine how painfull it is without your mum, she gave birth to you without the blessing of her life you wouldnt be having any birthdays, if you know what i mean, and all special ocasions seem to bring it home that bit harder to us when one or more special people as i know recently your friend is no longer with you, i dont need to say about finding comfort in knowing there still around just on another dimention as you already know that but i will say i have felt my dads prescence v strong lately as you know i have been concerned about my mum lately and feel he has come to help, i hope me telling you about my dad helps sending luv and a hug 💛🌟🌈and i do have a surprise for you tomorror which will help bring a smile to you 🤗
Thanks, Chloe. I wish I could get support at the church. I know logically that I do have their support, but this awful woman trumps that. She'll be back end of April, and I will be disappearing again. It's horrible.
That's a good idea. I would really like to get with the church council about this before she returns. I'm horribly afraid of her downplaying my grief again if I go back to the church when she gets back. If I talk to the council, they will know to be on the lookout then. I wonder if the pastor would approve that? I'll ask, so thanks for the idea.
Yes, we often forget that it is still early days with our loss, everyone has different needs and if you're like me, it can take longer than we ever imagine.
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