dark thoughts and feelings

[KingkittyS]

No going to lie but I am depressed about life. I am having dark thoughts as well. I took Medication to regulate my mood but it doesn’t seem to help. I try my best to use my coping skills, but everything fails to work out. My mom has been showering me with love and my dad shows how much he cares for me. I did school, but I mostly just took things easy. I still think life sucks. Hopefully my life gets better. Hopefully.

[Mybestfriends]

Hi there, i'm sorry your feeling this way at this time, I understand how it can feel pretty Dark at times. Sounds like your experiences & Family are really similar to my adult Son. Because he & yourself, are doing all the right things, which is really Good, We have for our Son, asked his Amht Dr for a Meds Review. & asked Son to be Honest with his Psychiatrist, otherwise how, can they give correct Meds, Therapy etc. It's good you can go Online & join Chats or just read through comments, Autistic Groups. My Son has other Diagnosises aswell as ASDc, they can & do crossover sometimes & Huge Meltdowns when this happens. He feels what's the point, & that life Sucks, wants to chat to people, have good friends so badly, it hurts. Music helps, Gym, walking etc but if the Meds are not helping, then all what your trying to do, eg Coping mechanisms, Self Help will feel not as much benefit, as you've said. Hope things get better for you. It's really Good your asking on here, someone else may have some good advice or direct you in some way.

[Mybestfriends]

It's great you love singing, music & Drawing, this in itself, if you follow what you love, will bring great satisfaction, good feelings, achievements, friendships, social & more. My Son is alot older than you, but he loves Singing, Music creating, Drawing Characters. Life is a journey, with lots of ups & downs & winding roads, it is our choices & what directions & like minded people we choose to allow into our lives, who support & want to be part of all this. Take care.

[Bee-bop]

Hi Kingkitty,

I hope that you start to feel things are not as bad soon. I know that recently there have been some big changes in your life like your grandfather dying, moving back home and going back to school and each one of these are challenging in themselves. I know it isn't easy when we have dark thoughts but, be kind to yourself right now. All these things have impact and can also be tiring. Do you have therapy as part of your mental health care? Can you ask for it? Can you tell your parents you are struggling? Each time my daughter returned to education after the summer break she would struggle with the new academic year and the school said that most kids with asd do so, this could be part of it. She would also be disappointed with herself and become angry with herself at not being able to just get on with it like the other kids. Usually there's a trigger to the dark thoughts and with asd you also have sensory issues and huge buildings full of noisy people, bright lights etc don't help.

As Mybestfriends says, you have interests such as your music and art that can help even if just a little bit and you may need another review of your medication. Also, do you have things in place at school for support? Are you in the UK as here there's something called an EHCP (education and health care plan) put in place to support those with a diagnosis of ASD and other conditions.

[KingkittyS]

Unfortunately my family is on a tight budget so therapy is not an option. I am based on the US. I have told my parents how I felt, but the medicine takes a while to kick in. I just don’t like when my sisters laugh and push buttons even though they know I have autism, bipolar, anxiety, and depression. I got me frustrated when my sisters treat strangers better than me. It’s so sad. I believe that they are toxic and I need to keep my distance to manage my mental health.