Who am I again

[Whoami01]

Hi everyone

Well were do I start. I have always been on my own even when with others, it's hard to be isolated when in a group of people or in a family environment but I am and have always been that way. I was always the brunt of others harsh word and never the one asked to go out and do the usual things children did. I was always in trouble in some Shap or form and kept a strain on my parents relationship. I was diagnosed with dislexia in the last year of secondary school and spent my time fishing and shooting on my own, I found it easier to talk and interact with adults always struggling to keep friends and relationships of any kind even ending in me being thrown out by the age of 16. I never played with toys only pulled them apart to see how they worked and then never put them back together. I had a real bad problem with anger but happy to stay on my own fishing for days on end. I have been married 2 times lasting only 6 year average and engaged that lasted all of 6 months and have a cv that is now 12 pages long. I was diagnosed with severe adhd at the age of 38 and now I am 42 and waiting on the autistic assessment list. When I was diagnosed adhd I felt that I was now someone else and found it so hard coming to terms with were I was going, I am now there again with a strong likely hood of diagnosed autistic. Really who am I ? So many things going through my mind oh and all at the same time I am dealing with my marriage break up.

[Whoami01]

Hi again all I received my diagnosis of asperger and that felt like a big win for me the answer to the big question but now I have no idea were to go from here was refused pip and only just had an esa assessment. I am taking this as a positive and the negatives I can now try to work on