really depressed and here's what happened.

Well, as you all know i had the worst week ever last week.

It all started on Saturday morning when i recieved a letter AND a payslip from my former employer, someone had put my leaving date as 8th September (i actually left on 12 th October) and so the letter said i owed them over £1300 due to an over payment and the wage slip said i had been paid the holiday pay but they where keeping it.

Knowing that pay day should have been on Monday i got really stressed knowing there was nothing i could do till then and all my direct debits where due to come out that day.

The stress made me really ill and i suddenly found myself depressed.

So at 9am Monday morning i spent 40 mins trying to get hold of the guy in payroll, all i got was his answerphone ( turns out the bloke is on a weeks holiday!!) eventually i rang the main switchboard and demanded to speak to anyone from payroll - eventually talking to someone who advised me to speak to the person who had input the 8th on the computer , do you think they would answer the phone? nope!!! rang my manager in the end.

Eventually i received an email saying that the person who had input the 8th put her hands up and took responsibility, I will now get paid.

Course by now i am so stressed and depressed i was almost suicidal, an alien concept to me!!

Then i had the news about my partner in crime -

So by now i am stressed,depressed and crying - i would even cry at adverts!!!!

By my tribunal on Thursday i had had enough - when i went i really didn't care about the result

Today i am very very tired and still feeling depressed but feel better, still haven't had my pay and my direct debits have now bounced up and down the high street faster than a kid on a spacehopper - still getting the phone calls but luckily they have all been ok about my situation- will be claiming the charges off my former company, tomorrow i will ring CAB or ACAS, as you know i won my tribunal, that cheered me up for a few hours but then back to remembering the wage and the loss of my bezzie,

I have a Drs appointement on Thursday and as much as i hate the thought i think i need some anti-depressants

[nellie15]

oh craztlady,I am so sorry for your troubles,sending you strength and courage, its okay to bend sometimes with the weight of sorrow and worry, you are usually strong for everyone else,however your problems are manmade, hang on in there,... excuse me for asking...who or what is bezzie?be gentle with yourself, thinking of you x

[Hidden in reply to nellie15]

the lovely Val was my bezzie xx miss her so much zz

[nellie15 in reply to Hidden]

thank you x

[Preshous]

Wow Krazy you sure chose the right name.... . To be honest with you anti depressants are not the evil everyone would have you believe they are. For sure it takes a while to find the right balance but you can live life quite happily with a little help. I have been on what we call at home Gary's "Couldn't Care Less Pills" , they don't change a thing just help you look at things in a more positive way.......

Gary xx

[alanjudy]

Sorry to hear of your troubles. You should let your previous employer know that you will be claiming for the bounced dds plus the stress.

Judith

[jandan]

Big hugs!! It is a sod when one thing goes wrong then another and another but try and keep your yourself from thinking that things will never get better. I know that is an easy thing for me to say as I don't know you personally but as a person who suffers from depression I need to try to find the positive or go under.

Speak to your doctor there is no shame in admitting you need help I used to think I could get by without it but I am now taking Citalopram and I feel the difference.

Good Luck and remember the people on here can help

Janet

[Lynne1955]

Hang in there xxxxxx

Lynne xx

[zube-UK]

Gary and jandan are right about the antidepressants, I took seroxat for 18 months when my dad died, we lived together 30yrs after mum died 1964 !.. long ago, hu . well those anti's just helped me to see things in the right perspective again and I had no trouble coming off them gradually.

thinking of you, I miss Val too, you had a wonderful bezzie there, and she had one too.

su xx

[Daxiemad]

Oh bless you Krazylady, things will get better, it is a bugger when everything goes wrong at once and really gets you down, I have been there. But congrats on the tribunal really pleased for you.

Hugs the Daxiecrew

[amagran]

get the anti depressants , any help you can get , Hope you feel brighter soon, xxx

[Hidden]

Dear Kerry, make sure you tell the doc the ordeal of the last week, some people are great on the anti depressants I sure hope they work well for you. You have had far too much to deal with recently and if the a.d.'s help you through this period so much the better.

Take good care of you. Hugs xox Zoee x

[Hidden]

Oh Krazy what a spit week. Hope things calm down for you sweetheart. ((((HUGS))))

xx

[terri-rose]

Sorry to hear you're feeling poorly. Hope things improve for you soon x

[Bronch1noGO]

You have had more than your share of upsets over the last week, take it easy Krazylady Val is still with you, don't try to shoulder it all. Share the load and the dark cloud will start to lift.

Take care

Karen

X

[Hidden]

Not wanting to add to worries but do you know when Vals funeral is want to pay respects

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Val did not want a funeral, and as Graham said what Val wants Val gets, even now shes gone.

So no funeral i'm afraid.

[lizziec1]

Don't be frightened of taking anti depressants I have been on them 20 odd years and if they help to keep you bouncing along in life thats all to the good. I attended MIND in Cardiff who were just such lovely people like an extended family. They gave me all the support in the world, particularly with paperwork, attending tribunals, seeing those beastly people at ATOS. I can't speak highly enough of them. We are not machines and those of us who have been of huge strength to others appear to suffer most. Take care and keep in touch xx

[libbygood]

Hi Krazy, I get depressed and finally plucked up the courage to ask for ADs, first ones made me feel awful now on second lot - not so bad but waiting for them to 'kick in', at least I've stopped crying at slightest sad thing. I think losing Val and all your other problems have made you depressed, you use to sound so upbeat. I obviously didn't know Val as well as you, but her passing really seemed to affect me, didn't log onto the site for a while, I found the site was making me even more depressed and we are in the worst time of the year for depression too.

Definitely get some help.

Libby xx

[sassy59]

Oh Krazy, you really have had an awful time just lately. As if losing a great friend isn't enough, your former employer decides to add to your problems and worries! Great! Take all the help you can get and hope you feel lots better soon. Is there anyone close you can talk to about Val? Let the grief out but it will all take time. Thinking of you and take care of yourself. xxxxxx

[junegirl]

Hi Krazy, i know its hard but try to look at it differently, not as a failure because it is not you are being proactive in soursing help for yourself, you would be irresponsible if u sat there and done nothing and got worse, i ended up on anitdepressants after my run in with atos, cos i couldnt take anymore knockbacks, and as much as i hated having to take them they kept me on an even keel, and i use to be a mental health nurse!!! so u can imagine was not an easy step for me either. The most important thing is u! and where wld we all be without our Krazy to cheer us all up!! best wishes hun xx

[copdber]

The saying it never rains but it pores comes to mind to describe the week you had. That was a week from hell. Sorry about your friend Val I didn't know her but I did read about her in one of the posts on hear. I started taking anti D's when I was looking after my brother before he died that was 5 years ago the only down side to them was that I was sorry I didn't ask for them earlier I struggled with anxiety and felt so stressed and down at that time. I haven't come off them because I feel they are helping me and I don't have any side effects at least non that I know of. Hope you get sorted out soon take care.

[thatcham1939]

hi Krazylady, there will be light at the end of the tunnel, i have been very depressed and im on AD many years, it comes and goes the depression.

so i feel for you good luck