Breathing and lungs never feel the same

[Xannyx]

So before I begin I’ll give some backstory I am 18 and I been homeless recently I suffered a lot with depression and anxiety and been using drugs to cope with reality, about 1 month ago I was on Xanax 2mg and weed, during my black out I consumed about 300mg dxm, I remember coming into consciousness and the trip running smoothly seeing colours and enjoying it, I slowly felt the trip just get more and more intense and I started to hallucinate and feel so disassociated. I remember going into the er and being in the ward while waiting for me to sober up as they said I’m ok and it was just the effects, I been sober on everything for about a month , then after the dxm trip it had cause bad anxiety the first 2 weeks I couldn’t control my anxiety attacks but finally been able to manage it. I previously had Asthma but it has been pretty much absent but I constantly have the feeling of not being able to feel my breathing like my chest is numb . I tried weed again yesterday and it was good but that feeling was intense. I had test done and chest X-rays and everything came back fine, they say I’m fine but I never felt fine after that, I have so much trouble concentrating and I’m just worried that just from my stupid decision from my depression that I messed my life up

[Troilus]

Oh Xannyx, you are in a mess my friend. But, the fact that you have posted on here tells me you are wanting to turn things around.

Anxiety and depression can be very debilitating, and although appealing, the use of dxm and weed are not the answer- they may make you feel better in the short term, but in the long term they will add to your problems.

Dxm can cause liver failure, now there’s something to look forward to☹️

Weed, although relatively harmless, is a no no for people with asthma. Smoke of any kind can inflame the airways, which might be what you are experiencing. If you keep using, with your history, you may just trigger an asthma attack. Do you still have a blue inhaler? If not, are you able to get one? Just in case. A visit to the GP may well be in order, both for your breathing and your anxiety.

Having said all of that, I am guessing you already know these things.

The hard part is the homelessness. Depression and anxiety are difficult enough to deal with, without the added burden of living on the streets, but my guess is that you are doing this out of necessity not as a lifestyle choice.

I am also guessing that a return to the family home is out of the question?

How you solve that problem, I don’t know, but I would start with the local council. The government are keen to tell us that everyone that wants it will be found accommodation during this pandemic. Now is the time to put that to the test.

A visit to citizens advice might be in order, as they can help you with this, as can other charities, but I don’t know which are operating in your area, although you possible do.

Who knows. If you get yourself of the streets this may well help lessen your anxiety and depression.

You are too young to have messed your life up. You have so many years ahead of you to experience so many good things.

You are on a slippery slope but if you start now, this can be something that in later years you can look back on as ‘ I remember when.....

I think you recognise that the time has come to reach out and ask for help.

[sassy59]

Depression is what you need help with first and foremost in order to tackle your addictions and health problems. You have to want help though of course. Our son is living with us as he has no job, no money and has depression and addictions. He won’t seek help but is trying to turn his life around. He’s nearly 38.

I would urge you to get the help you need and hopefully go forward in life. I wish you well. Xxx

[Katinka46]

You are so young. And I mean that in a positive way. Barely more than a child. I am sure you don't think that, but a lot of us here have had children who have gone through what you are going through. And — believe us — they have come through. You know that you need to take control and sort things. But you do need help. You do not mention if you have family or friends who can support through. And you need to see your GP. There is help. Even in these very difficult times. Most towns and cities have drop places to help youngsters like you.

Hang in there.

All the best

Kate x

[peege]

Hi Xannyx, a warm welcome to you.

I'm so sorry that youve found yourself homeless at such a young and vulnerable point in life. Are you in America ? If you are I know things are very different in health and social support over there. I have absolutely no idea what dmx is though I suspect its addictive so best avoided. As for weed, when I was 18 it was pure and not nearly so toxic as the skunk available here in UK now. My worry for you would be drug induced psychosis in a bod as young as yours.

I hope you'll find the strength to say no and to search out charities and/or support agencies who'll help you get a roof over your head before winter comes.

anxiety, depression, poor diet along with being homeless will certainly lower your immune system leaving you open to catch anything and everything. best wishes to you? Peege